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October Update! :o)

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Hi sparkworld!

I haven’t been able to commit as much time as I’d like with the site, and it’s showing. I’m seeing peeks of my “danger number”…the next set of 10s on the scale. I will not and can not go back.

Since reaching goal-ish range I’ve also been dealing with end of summer crisis, which has thankfully passed, and the start of a new school year. I LOVE my class this year; I lucked out with a great group – but the task masters and working environment turn what should be a fun, exciting, and happy place to work into a stress inducing, impossible to succeed, negative, toxic place. I MISS teaching. I can’t do anything about many of these things, but I can choose how I react to it. Some weeks I do really well, then, others, I’m just about ready to blow. Thankfully, because I have such a great class I am able to find the positive in just enjoying their company and watching them learn each day. Don’t get me wrong, I certainly have a few challenging kiddos, but I’m hoping I can provide a little of what they’re lacking and I’m determined to see them succeed. If I had the challenges that some of my colleagues are dealing with I don’t know if I could get up and go to work each day. My students are the only ‘things’ (reason?) that keep me going in this environment. So…it’s not great, but it could be worse. I’m trying to enjoy and find the good in what I can, and really working on letting go of what I can’t. It’s just exhausting working in a place where you’re always ‘reacting’ rather than preparing, and always dealing with the consequences of putting the cart before the horse…on things imposed by others. Ok, ok, ok-ay…enough of that…!

Big news for tomorrow! It’s the Flutie 5k!! And, my husband and I were able to convince (bribe) my youngest son (who is on the autism spectrum) to walk it this year!!! We picked up our bibs this morning and he agreed to join us. As I was filling out his registration I started tearing up. Another milestone crossed. He had been digging in his heels…didn’t even want to come and watch us (crowds, too many people, too busy, etc.). I’m so excited he agreed. My oldest son and I will run…race to the finish line, so I can get some pictures of my husband and my youngest crossing. If that’s not incentive to run fast, I don’t know what is. I’ll be a blubbering idiot, I’m sure. I better bring some tissues. I hope to run faster than I did last year, but this new development puts all of this into a different perspective. I’m so excited and proud of my family.

That’s the latest here. I’m going to try and catch up here on the site tonight and see what my sparkfriends have been up to. Though I haven’t been active on the site, I am trying to at least spin that wheel and update my status once in a while. I truly appreciate the comments and check ins from you folks. Your actions, though they may seem small to you, mean OODLES to me! Seeing that quick hi’ or ‘like’ on my feed helps remind me to stay on track. THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. I’m going to try and catch up some throughout the evening (between carting my oldest to his homecoming dance, birthday shopping for my nephew, etc…) and I am setting a new goal of not only spinning the wheel daily, but also browsing my feed daily, as well. Time to baby step back in and see what other folks are up to – this source of inspiration and motivation has been missing…it is so helpful! Not only that…Time to reciprocate some of the love you’ve been sending my way. Again..THANK YOU for helping keep me on track!

Enjoy what’s left of the weekend, everyone! Fingers crossed I’ll run like the wind tomorrow!
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    This race was much more than physical activity it was symbolic of your families ability overcome the obstacles place before you. So happy your son ran in the race. I look foward to hearing how everything turned out. You look awesome no outward signs of distress! It hard dealing with impairment challenges. emoticon emoticon
    1695 days ago
    I can relate your your school world, but awesome job for recognizing we have a choice how we react. Some days that is easier than other, I know!

    Good luck on your 5k and motivating your son to do it also! :)
    1698 days ago
    Hope you do great in your run and so glad to see you around! I know the administration can be horrible but do the best you can!
    1698 days ago
    :-D So great to hear how you've been. Your pride in your family, and the mention of your son willing to walk the 5k, participating with you all as a whole family, yeah that was extremely moving. I'm so happy for you, to have had that amazing experience.
    1699 days ago
    Good luck in your run!,
    1702 days ago
  • _BABE_
    You know what is worse than never ever losing weight? It's gaining it all back with change. The lifestyle you have now will never allow that and you should be proud. emoticon emoticon
    1703 days ago
  • BEWELL48
    Good luck on the run. What a beautiful day!
    How 'bout those Red Sox! More baseball to enjoy!
    I know what you mean about your job. I am facing all those issues that are so taxing on a daily basis. It is entirely too stressful!
    1703 days ago
    Glad to know that you're still out there giving the world what for! Sounds awesome that your son is agreeing to cross that threshold of discomfort and walk the 5k, I sincerely hope that it all works out and he has a huge smile on his face the whole time!

    I think you should wear the Green Lantern shirt. The flash shirt just seems a bit "showy" for a 5k, like you expect the be running circles around everyone. The Green Lantern (the actual Superhero) used the power of will to defeat evil and fear. Kinda what your son is doing by agreeing to walk the 5k. Just my 2 cents worth :)

    Have a great race!
    1703 days ago
    Enjoy the 5k!
    1703 days ago
  • LOTUS737
    Wow you have so much going on! Congrats on getting your son to agree to the race- that's huge! I used to work at lindamood bell and a lot of the kids I worked with were on the spectrum. I would be sobbing when he finishes too! Hope you have an awesome time with the run! Would be great to see you on here more!
    1703 days ago
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