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Saturday, October 19, 2013

This morning was my weekly weigh-in and my monthly measurements. It wasn't pretty. The only thing that went down was the circumference of my waist. Just about everything else went up!!

I, of course, burst into tears because this week especially has been super challenging. My husband is awesome and reminded me that even still, I haven't wavered in getting up at 5am EVERY weekday to get a workout in, that we have been weight training consistently and I'm getting stronger, that my waist DID go down and that he's been noticing that lately in the way my clothes fit. It helps but I'm still feeling pretty discouraged..... in that foggy gray area between going all GI Jane or saying forget it and throwing in the towel. Thankfully I still have a piece of my rational brain in my head and I'm not going to go overboard on either spectrum. I have a plan:

#1 - PRAY. I've found that nothing stops the bad thoughts better than telling God what's going on. He already knows, but it's therapeutic for me to confess all the ways that I'm not loving myself very well in this moment. And I need to read what HE says about me. That I'm beloved, precious, fearfully & wonderfully made. (God help me believe that more when I feel like such a failure.)

#2 - Buy a food scale. My husband said we can go get one today. Because despite the "deck of cards" tip, I truly have no idea if I'm eating 4oz of chicken or 8oz. And when I'm hungry... well, I might be a BIT biased??

#2.5 - Be sure to MEASURE everything that goes in my mouth. Kind of goes hand-in-hand with the scale, but if I'm honest with myself and you, I've been more lax on actually getting out the Tablespoon or 1/4 cup measures.

#3 - Eat BETTER calories. More whole grains, more veggies, & less sugars.

#4 - KEEP GOING. My work outs have been good. They challenge me without causing injury and I've been very consistent. I just need to get the eating in check and keep truckin'.

I don't know if this is a plateau, if I'm doing the right things, if there are other reasons for the gain in weight and inches, or if I've been a slacker. Right this second I have about a million doubts. But I think if I make sure to be honest with myself and my SP trackers, I will see progress. I'm going to be grateful for the solid 10 pounds that I've lost and try not to berate myself for not being farther along.

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    It's so EASY to think, "hey, I'm an adult, I think I know how much 2 Tbsp is!". But last night I made some chicken fajitas with tons of veggies and *actually* measured 2 Tbsp of light sour cream. (Said with the Oprah voice: WAKE UP CALL!!!) Just like you said, my un-measured "2T" has been more like 4. Same deal with my coffee creamer. And even though I know this isn't an exact science and that I'm burning extra calories above my weekly goal....well, I ought to give myself the best opportunity for success.

    Thanks for your comments and encouragement! It really does help to know that I'm not out here all alone.
    2009 days ago
  • ADF1981
    I totally understand how you feel. When I am feeling discouraged I remind myself that even if I talk myself out of doing well today because things aren't going my way and it doesn't feel worth it that I really want to get fit. I obviously really want it because I keep trying to watch what I eat and exercise. Giving up will mean that I just make it harder for me to obtain that goal later when I can work towards it now.

    It sounds like you have a great plan! Maybe things are shaping up and hopefully next month will be better. Like my arms, measurements have been the same the whole time but I think they are looking better. Weight loss is so weird sometimes!

    Keep going! There is something to the better calories I think. They say a calorie is a calorie, but I have better luck with healthy calories and good carbs, etc. Also, I tried not measuring and went back to measuring a while back. I definitely give myself too much if I do that. Its a pain sometimes for a tablespoon of peanut butter, but got to do it or I give myself a big glob that is probably 2 times that amount. LOL
    2010 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/19/2013 9:15:37 PM
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