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1500 a day just ain't gonna do it.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

I am a Big Whiny Baby. That's all I can say. But hey...isn't it all in the "owning the fact"?

1500 calories a day feels like Diet Mentality and I am fighting it hard. Such First World problems to have...I am ashamed, frankly - and angry with myself. I can't change my crapped-out metabolism. More exersise doesn't work. If I can manage to be a lot more active with the fatigue issues, all it does is ramp up my appetite.

Sigh. Gah. I am needing those Big Girl Panties more and more each day.

Lots of fun stress. Son sprained his ankle at work yesterday and his boss seems to be playing on our Yankee-ness....his boss told him NOT to report it as happening at work. Of course that's nonsense, it's a Work Cover (workman's comp) issue. So son is stressed by the whole happening and leery of telling his boss that he did indeed report it. Isn't that bad? I told him if his boss gives him grief, it's time to look for another job.

And I found out also yesterday that my dear Grandpa Bob died in Kansas. He is my fathers' step-dad, and I have very fond memories of both he and my Grandma Darlene before we emigrated to Oregon. He was a strong, stocky man. Nut-brown from working outside all day, and the most intense blue eyes you've ever seen. Very quiet, very kind. I didn't see him for almost 40 years until two years ago. He was frail then, and even frailer this August when we visited. He was very private and hated to accept the help he obviously needed, but sooo lonely. I'm very glad I hugged him as many times as he let me when we left his house. And he let me hug him a lot. :) It's not a sorrow because he was old and ill and was ready to go, just been thinking back on lots of nice memories.

So I'm glad today has been quiet (so far at least!) and I have time to whimper about my First World problems. I'll get it figured out...hopefully before I wear out all those Big Girl Panties and have to buy larger ones. ;)
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    1676 days ago
    So sorry for you loss...your description of him is compelling and he lives on through your stories.
    Sounds like the calories should not be the main focus right now, but feeling better overall. Stay focused on what you CAN do and CAN control. For me, it is avoiding the candy splurge!
    1677 days ago
    Sorry about the loss and your sons trouble. Take it one day at a time and one step a time. Make small changes that can last we can do it. Hugs
    1678 days ago
    so sorry for your loss and for your son's troubles. You are right he does need to report this. emoticon emoticon
    1678 days ago
    I found that for me, giving up counting calories was the answer. I adopted the simple eating strategy that thin people have naturally. I eat when I'm hungry, and don't if I'm not, even if it is a mealtime, I eat what I please, not necessarily what I'm told is good for me, I eat very slowly, and not while I'm doing something else, I concentrate on eating, and I stop when I'm beginning to feel full, long before I'm stuffed, and leftovers go in the bin. That killed the 'dieting' mentality stone dead. After all, one can't count calories for the rest of your life, it's not sustainable. I now fast 3x a week, to reduce my high cancer risk, not for weight loss, but on my non fasting days, I use the same principles.
    1678 days ago
    Sometimes I feel just like you, years of dieting have done in my metabolism. Sorry about your Grandfather, he sounds a very gentle man and it's good you have those memories of him. Hope your sons ankle gets better quickly and good on him for standing up to a work bully. emoticon
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    1678 days ago
    *hugs* So sorry to hear of your Grandpa's passing~ & sure glad that you've got beautiful memories of him to relive. He's at peace & he'll never hurt anymore. Someday you'll see him again, too. emoticon

    And sorry to hear about your son's ankle. Man alive! When it rains, it pours. Y'all take care of each other down there~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 10/15/2013 10:47:08 PM
    So sorry for your loss and for your son's difficulties at work. This seems to be a difficult time for so many people! It takes a while to get used to 1500 calories when you're used to eating more. Sometimes sipipng green tea can help.
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