Struggling with my Mood and Energy lately!
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Argh! I want to feel good again! Several weeks ago I met with my doctor regarding my depression symptoms and got put on a new medication regime. It was working great! I felt better, I was motivated, and just plain happier.
Thursday of last week I started to notice a change. It started with just some stresses at work, but then I noticed it was extending to home after work. I had less patience with my kids, and found myself tearing up as I sat next to my toddler's crib waiting for him to fall asleep enough to allow me to leave. I figured it was just a bad day, until I woke up Friday feeling the same way. Close to tears, having a hard time dealing with the toddler tantrums, and ready to run for hills with a bottle of booze! (I actually don't really drink!)
By Friday night, I figured it was just stress from my crazy schedule and work. I just needed the weekend to re-group. But when I woke up Saturday morning, I still felt off, and the feelings lasted most of the weekend, and now it's Tuesday and I'm still not right.
The bad part is that it totally affects my new habits. On Friday, I caved easily when asked to go to Fuddruckers for lunch - having a HUGE burger and fries. It was so delicious until the guilt kicked in. Yesterday, I brought my lunch, but found myself saying "Yes" to the lunch invitation from the girls. I chose a restaurant with healthy options, but ended up picking something in the "not so healthy" category.
Fortunately, my exercise routine seems to be making it through all of this. I just keep telling myself that if I exercise, I will feel better. So I do it. I guess it's helping a little, but I'm still exhausted every day. Last night by 9:30, I was dozing off - ready to go to bed, but too tired to head upstairs.
I'm giving myself a couple of days to see if it passes. If not, I will go to see my doctor again.
I know I'm on a long journey, and these moments will seem like blips on the radar when all is said and done. It just doesn't make it any easier while going through it. There are days when I really just wish my brain worked right and I didn't have to deal with this!
Hoping that tomorrow is better!