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Friday, October 11, 2013

I have felt so very "blah" these last few weeks. Once the 5% challenge was over, I also found myself less motivated. Pair that with dealing with this leg thing, I have not felt the drive to put forth any effort. In retrospect, I think that if I could have just hung in there, I might be down another 5-10 pounds. But whatever. I needed a break. The pitfall of that is the current struggle to regain my gung ho attitude.

The new Fall %5 Challenge starts on Saturday so now I will have a reason to get my focus back. I haven't been eating the greatest so I've gone back up a few pounds and will re-set my ticker tomorrow morning. I'm pretty sure the gain is water from high sodium so I'm a bit wary of re-setting the ticker --when I drop back down in a few days I don't want it to seem like I've lost all this weight, when in fact it's only been water weight from my bad food choices. Regardless, looking forward to working again toward my goal and having a measure of accountability. Accountability only to myself still doesn't work for me. I have a ways to go on that aspect. I still definitely need external motivation/drivers.

My legs/feet/shin splint(?) are a bit better but the left leg is still problematic like it has been. I've tried everything from exercises, wraps, roller, etc. and it never goes away. It's not as crippling as it was at one point but it is persistent. I was seen by my primary care physician this week who told me "that isn't consistent with shin splints" when I described my pain and showed her exactly where it was. She referred me to the Orthopedic and Sports Medicine department and I see them on Thursday. In the meantime, I have still been exercising a little when I can squeeze it in my schedule, but have been going at it pretty lightly. I have really scaled back, which is sort of depressing and frustrating but I keep reminding myself that it's temporary.

Tonight I go to the gym for strength training and walk/run intervals. I'm only running in 1/4 m lengths (haven't timed how long that is). This seems to keep things nice and safe without much painful repercussion. About a week ago I ran a mile straight just to make sure I still was able to. I am so afraid of regressing, and know I have to some extent. It's been so long since I could really push it. It wasn't as effortless as it was 2 months ago but I definitely still got it and while I wouldn't be happy about it, I think I could still run two miles straight like I had been before all of this.

The situation is frustrating since running has been the most effective and most beneficial exercise I have ever done and I want to get back to it. It's definitely a sort of "use it or lose it" situation. While I love my zumba and hip hop, the classes just don't break a sweat or get my heart rate up like they used to. I do those classes for fun, not so much for the burn anymore. I would miss them if I totally stopped going though. Besides, going to them every so often helps to keep up my fantasy that I could totally "kill it on the dance floor" if I were ever presented with that challenge!

I had a MAJOR NSV this week. I now fit into the old size 12 jeans that I think I may have mentioned a few blogs ago. They fit GREAT. This made me very happy. Now if I could get my upper body to start slimming down. Unfortunately, I have an "apple" body so my top half is slower going than the lower. Depending on the cut of the shirt (not to mention the brand), my top size can vary greatly. I bought a size 14 shirt for Thanksgiving that, while it kinda fits, still is a bit tight across the chest. If I move the wrong way, there is a gap between the buttons. I'd like to be able to wear it because it's just gorgeous so I need it to be very comfortable by Thanksgiving. I hate squeezing into clothes and then having to pay attention or fuss with them to make sure they look/fit right. I am therefore motivated to work for it.

So there's my rambling way of saying "Go Team Starfish!" Let's get the 5% Challenge started!

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    "going to them every so often helps to keep up my fantasy that I could totally "kill it on the dance floor" if I were ever presented with that challenge!" that cracked me up!!

    Even when you're "blah" I can always hear something positive coming from within you. I'm so sorry your leg is hurting you and that it's slowing you down, but I know you will overcome this!

    You have come sooooooooo far and those size 12 jeans??? Girl!!!! I can only dream of that right now but it's your reality so feel good about that and don't let it get too outta hand with the eating. You are worth more than that.
    2015 days ago
    Keep up the great work! Way to go! emoticon emoticon
    2017 days ago
    I hear your frustration, Girl -- but please be sure to give yourself a chance to heal properly! The fact that you love running is all the more reason to get that looked after. It doesn't take much to cross that imaginary line of "oops! too far" and by then, it could be too late to turn it around.

    Congratulations on fitting your size 12 jeans!!! You're rocking it, Girl!!!
    Take care. Keep me posted. emoticon

    2018 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/12/2013 3:09:21 PM
    Hey, hope your leg feels better soon. I'm going to echo everyone else, and tell you to pay attention to your body and what it is telling you. Elliptical is a good non-impact cardio workout, and so is water aerobics. Oh, and awesome on you for fitting into a size 12! Hope to hear more good news from you soon. emoticon emoticon
    2018 days ago
    I so agree with NHES220 about having an injury. 15 years ago I loved tennis and I did not pay attention to my ongoing knee problems.

    I've had to switch to water aerobics and yoga. Both can get the heart rate up and are much safer for my knees. Fortunately, I really love them both now, but I still miss tennis! emoticon Go easy.

    BRAVO for the size 12 jeans! Your fellow Starfish! Maria

    2018 days ago
    I was back in the saddle yesterday ( horseback riding) and my butt hurts!!! emoticon
    2018 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon You are not doing as bad as I expected if you are wearing a 12! emoticon Hope you can pull out of your dull drums and start eating properly. That will make you feel so much better. emoticon Be good to yourself! emoticon You are special!! emoticon emoticon
    Really happy you are getting more than a bandaide over your foot issue! Not doing any exercise... has a more adverse effect than a moderate amount. Your body will make you quit when the pain get's worse. Just listen to what it has to say! emoticon I hope the physician/nurse practitioner or PA that see's you is thorough and helps give you more than just a diagnosis and temporary treatment. They need to determine if there is a mechanical reason you are having problems and help you modify the way you are running or walking. There are probably weak muscles that are being overpowered by the stronger ones. Sometimes the problem is higher up in your spine, pelvis, hips, knees or ankles. It takes a really thorough assessment to make sure they are not missing a pinched nerve that is causing the issue. There are many types of referred pain and trigger points that make it hard to determine a reliable diagnosis. I am rooting for you and hope it all comes out very positive! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Love ya! Anna
    2019 days ago
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    Isn't that just awesome that you're back into your size 12's? I am too, but I have to tell you, they are a little snug, LOL. When I take them off I have railroad tracks all over my body from the seams and the zipper, LOL

    I hope your aches and pains will go away for good real soon.
    I am a starfish too, happy we are on the same team together. I'm here anytime
    you need a little kick in the hiney.

    Love, Ginger emoticon
    2019 days ago
    emoticon I am glad you are seeing an Ortho doctor. Be sure what you are doing won't injure you further. I am surprised you can still do Zumba and Hip hop. You will do great on the Fall challenge! You will find a way. Hugs, Laurel
    2019 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/11/2013 11:23:26 AM
    Awesome motivation!

    I hope you can figure out the pain thing in your legs. That really sucks. It took me a whole year before I found a solution to mine and even in the year since then I've had to be careful with it. No fun.
    2019 days ago
  • NHES220
    Glad you are getting your leg checked out. I know how frustrating an injury is and not being able to work out to your fullest. That is how it was with my hamstring injury. But rushing back can only damage things further or delay your comeback - so be careful! You will get back there! I'm with you, nothing gets my heart rate up and burns calories like running! Congrats on the jeans! That is where I am now - in size 12. I can button the 10s, they just don't look good - maybe another couple of weeks. You will be in that shirt for Thanksgiving and it will look great!
    2019 days ago
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