Staying in Tune with the Seasons of life
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Last November I joined SP and immediately began benefiting from all SP offers. I began to experience the great support system that SP gives, and through Spark Coach I received the extra boost I needed to get started living in a healthier way.
I am in the Fall of my life. I am a grandmother of 10 lively precious grandchildren under the age of 14. What fun it is when we are all together. My husband and I reared 5 wonderful children that have given us a few headaches, but so much more happiness than I could ever have imagined.
My body feels like Fall. My abdomen became pendulous in 1978 after the birth of our last child. I don't like it, and I'm hoping that I can improve this dislike with more weight loss and toning through exercise, and if that doesn't happen I will eventually accept the fact that this is it. I would like to look my best without this extra drooping, and, I will accept it if that's is what I have to do.
I am in the midst of breast reconstruction after first having a lumpectomy almost 9 years ago and then another spot showed on mammogram a year ago in August. I had a bilateral mastectomy last Valentine's Day. No more breasts for awhile, but now things are beginning to improve. My inserts (expanders) are doing their job and giving me back the appearance that I lost on Valentine's day, only smaller and better looking. I'm beginning to walk more normally. My center of gravity fell when I had my breasts removed and suddenly I couldn't walk right. Now that I have some breasts again my walk and sense of balance is improving. I can take a long stride and everything moves in sync.
My knees hurt, the result of too much weight being forced upon them for too many years. I need to lose weight so that if or when I get a new knee or two I can better tolerate the procedure and the follow up and follow through. I use a cane when I walk outside of my home if I'm going to be walking any distance. If I'm in a big box store I ride a scooter, otherwise I hurt for three days afterwards. I do have a fear of falling so I use my cane for balance and for steps. I'm considering getting a walker with a seat on it so that I can walk and shop and sit down when I need to so that I can keep going without the fear of falling and so that the walker can carry my purse and provide me the stability I need.
I imagine my knees will have to get much worse before I actually do anything about them. I've had MRIs and been told that my neck is worse than my knees, but I haven't had anything done with my neck either. It's amazing what one can learn to deal with on a daily basis, just making do. Climbing up and down steps is no fun at all and I need to rig up a basket for transporting stuff up and down so I can use my arms to move my body and keep from worrying that a knee might give out. I sometimes go down backwards because then if i slip the fall will take me onto the steps and not head over heels down them. Creativity is important all during our lives, but it is even more important when we need to find new ways to accomplish tasks, like sitting on a chair to mop the kitchen floor. The fly on the wall must be surprised sometimes at what I'm doing and how. I plan to keep that fly amused for awhile yet!
I had my eyes checked two days ago, and was offered cataract surgery. I do have a problem with glare and driving at night can be a challenge with circles around the headlights of oncoming cars. Fall is becoming quite a challenge this year and in this season of my life, but I am grateful that I am better able to deal with each of these challenges. I have good doctors and good advice and I am following through with health advice and developing healthier habits. I am tracking my nutrition and watching both calories and portions and developing more control. I'm learning to challenge myself with exercise and making time for it daily when I am able, and when the doctors say okay. I can use chair exercises when I can't do more, and I do. The least I do is 5 minutes of stretching which I have to do most mornings before my feet can hit the floor and support me. Getting older is such a privilege, but losing abilities during this season of life is a fact of my life and a daily challenge.
I am fortunate to have the support of SP and my family and friends to help me through this season, and the determination to be the best that I can be so that I can deal with whatever comes next in my life. I am working on mindfulness and becoming more resilient. I'm taking my medicines and keeping track of doctors' appointments so that I benefit from wellness being proactive in my own health care. Pehaps I've lived long enough and experienced enough to know that this is the best approach to growing older, enjoying the Fall season and the Winter that is coming.