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Elliptical Machine (Not a Coat Rack, Anymore!)

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

We got our elliptical machine in 2008. I know this because I wanted to get back in shape, while I was home on maternity leave. This didn't happen. Before I went back to work I had to hunt for blousy tops to cover my stomach, which has become the biggest trouble spot for me.

I did slim down once I got back to work, because a coworker introduced me to the Metabolism Miracle Diet, because she was going through a lot of weird mood swings, etc, and was thinking it was more of a nutrition thing, since she'd investigated other avenues and they had not panned out.

It worked and I was reasonably thin - At just under 5'4", with a big chest (regardless of weight) and an hourglass figure, 157 puts me in a size 8. Not a skinny bikini shape, but a shape, nonetheless. See? Here's me at my daughter's first birthday. I don't have a lot of full-figure photos, because I am a perfectionist and if I don't feel I look perfect, I throw out the photo. I will only admit to this here, but it's the truth. I hate that I do this. I was 31 in this picture. There's one of me in a bathing suit, in Bermuda, too.

When I was pregnant with my second daughter in 2010, I was already heavier, but I'm not sure when exactly I started gaining again. After I had my 2nd daughter, I continued to balloon upwards and size 12s fit, if you didn't button them, which I hate to say, but it's true. This is the heaviest I have ever been. Dieting since 9/9, I can now fit into size 12, thank God, but I am hoping to get at least back to an 8. I looked and felt the best, when I was in a size 4/6.

Anyway, I have been working dilligently at this since 9/9 and I'm hoping to stay with SparkPeople for the long haul. Even when (and I know it's not an "if" because I've done this before, I keep yo yoing), I really need to stay here. It's going to be a lifelong thing for me to try to stay healthy.

Here's a horrible photo of me from Facebook that I untagged myself from - it's the only remaining record of me being at my daughter's bday party this year. That's my mom next to me, who lost weight, while we both went through a lot of upset with sick family members (she stopped eating from being stressed and I ate enough for both of us).

I put together an amazing backyard party, when all of my daughter's friends do 2 hour parties at acrobatics places. I had a circus theme, rented a bounce house, had kid-friendly appetizers, pizza, old fashioned games (pin the tale on the donkey, sack races, ring toss) and had a pinata, prizes - invited everyone & their siblings & their families. But, not a picture of me that I am willing to share with anyone I know in real life.

Anyway, back to that coat rack....err, elliptical. It's so nice - we have an exercise room with weights, our elliptical machine has an audio jack for my Kindle or my Ipod, and there's even a little fan that blows cool air on my face, as it tracks calories, time, etc. I just need to fight the good fight and go down there and do it everyday.

Do you hide pictures of yourself you think are "fat"? I hate that I do this, because it's like I'm missing out on a lot of things I did.
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    I unintentionally do that. If I look back thru the years, the only photos of me are flattering, with sometimes years between sightings of me
    753 days ago
    I was thin most of my life but never liked having my picture taken. I liked your pictures and thought you were very pretty.
    1690 days ago
    I understand the picture thing -- That is why I am always taking the pictures. But recently I realized that I don't have any pictures of myself because I have so many pictures of everyone else. You don't have to look at the pictures -- but take them and let them hang around. Put them in a box for your family -- and think one day -- you will look back and say See how far I have come! :)
    1690 days ago
    Your daughter won't care WHAT you weighed or HOW you looked - someday she will just treasure that she has pictures of you and her when she was little. I understand the perfectionist thing. I really do. But just like you'd love her regardless of her weight, she'll love you, too. Keep those pictures!
    1691 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    If I did not have a birth certificate, nobody would know I was around..
    BTW, you are beautiful..

    Now you will have to go shopping for hangers.. hop on that elliptical and do one of those virtual vacations!! I have never done it, but you start in one place and basically get a map and map out where you have been ,virtually,, take a vacation while you are burning the wight off! It is fun to read where people want to go and they get there by either miles, minutes, calories,etc.. Runningtolose went all over the place last winter on her "trip".
    1691 days ago
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