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So many life changes...but it's back to the SparkBasics for me!

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

Hard to believe it's been over a year since I've blogged here. So much has happened since then! Probably the biggest change in my life is...

Jackson Alexander was born on July 5, 2013...10 weeks early! So not surprisingly, my life over the last 4 months has been filled with ups & downs, and lots of stress and sleep deprivation. Fortunately, he came home after 8 weeks in the NICU and is (so far) a healthy little boy.

So now I'm struggling to get back on track. Last summer, I was in the best shape of my life, weighing in the low 160s. I gained about 45lbs with my pregnancy due to a lot of stress eating. Now I'm trying to reign that in, which has been extremely difficult.

I've got 2 weeks left to my maternity leave, and the last several days have been the hardest. Maybe the boredom and monotony has finally kicked in. Maybe I'm stressing over how wholly unproductive this time has been, despite being a wonderful time for me to finally bond with my baby. Maybe I'm stressing about going back to work, and having to buy new clothes because my 10s and 12s won't fit. Kind of bumming hard about that. Maybe I'm anxious because I know that getting back into triathlon shape will be orders of magnitude more difficult because of my mommy obligations. Maybe I'm just in a funk, feeling sorry for myself.

I've been binge eating on anything I can get my hands on. And that must stop so I can set a healthy example for my son.

So today, my goal is to drink my water, track my calories, and go for a walk whenever the urge to binge hits. Today I will make a plan for how to fit workouts in. Today I will forgive myself for having a dirty house, not having the laundry done, and not being the supermom I was expecting of myself. Today I will enjoy my baby, for that my most important job right now.
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    1719 days ago
    Sounds like you haven't been unproductive at all. You faced all kinds of challenges and adjustments and stress. Take it one "baby step" at a time. Cut yourself some slack. Treat yourself with kindness.
    1719 days ago
  • JENIR1975
    Congrats. Good luck with your goals. You can do it
    1719 days ago
  • EG8383
    congrats on your handsome lil man and welcome to motherhood. I also thought I was going to be a super mom. I'd be able to juggle everything include my baby and things would be normal. Yes I was wrong but yes being a mommy is the most important job in the world! Stress will always be there in some way or form thats life. So focus on what you can do and include your boy if possible. You'll get the hang of things in time you just need to adjust. Don't bea yourself up. You'll find new jeans to go back to work in until your old ones fit again, the laundry and house work will eventually get done, and you'll learn to be a super mom once baby boy gets older. One day at a time. You're going to be fine! =)
    1719 days ago
    Congrats on your new baby - I'm sure once you get back to work and in the normal swing of things you will find the time to workout and get back to where you were, it's totally ok, you just had a baby. Best wishes.
    1719 days ago
  • 3G1RLS4ME
    Congrats on your son if u go for a walk take your son along even if it's kangaroo time on your chest yes I speak the lingo lol
    Mine was in Nicu for 2 months too I would had an 8 yr old in dec but that's a story for another time
    1719 days ago
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