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8.To walk into a room and feel people are looking at me because I'm pretty, not because I'm fat

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

Can I first just say, I'm loving blogging these 'reasons why I want to lose weight' right now. It's really giving me a focus, and to think about these mental 'issues' that I feel hold me back from losing weight, as weird as that sounds. Yeah, they're reasons why I want to lose weight, but I also feel like if I don't get past these issues, I will never lose the weight. That makes no sense. Whatever. Moving on…

So this one. The number of times I've been told I have a 'pretty face', I can't tell you. I have to laugh because I do find it so hard to just take a compliment as a compliment and say 'thanks' and move on! What is that about?! lol When I hear 'you have a pretty face', a little voice in my head sometimes whispers 'shame about the body', as if that's what the person really is thinking! Yikes! I know exactly where this has come from though. When I was about 15 (yeah I know, going back a bit), I was walking in a shopping centre and these 2 boys were walking towards me. One of the boys nudged his friend and indicated towards me, and loud and clear as day the friend said 'nope! Nice face, not the body!'. I was mortified, and had to just walk past and pretend I hadn’t heard them! At 15 years old, that is NOT what you want to hear from boys. It has stuck with me to this day for some reason. Again, what's that about?! I didn’t know these boys, but 11 years later I still remember it like it was yesterday.

I get this feeling quite a lot. My mum always tells me I have a 'presence' when I walk into a room, and whenever I'm with my little cousins (they are 12 and 13 but think they are my age! haha) they are always hissing at guys and asking me why everyone is staring at me (lol they are very bold these little girls, love them!). I wish I could just feel like they are admiring me, for whatever reason, but I hardly ever feel like that. Or I just think 'oh, it's because I'm tall (5'10), that's why they're looking' (how lame, eh!). I absolutely love love love being tall, do not get me wrong. But being tall and overweight has made me feel like a big bruiser walking into a room sometimes! Eeeeek!

If I'm honest, I am slowly getting over this one I think. I feel really really pretty at the moment. I came into work yesterday with my hair in a new style, my make-up done, a nice work-dress that I hardly ever wear. And I felt GREAT. I walked in and so many of my colleagues were like 'Wow! You look so nice!'. Someone even called me a 'Glamazon'! Haha! Me?! Glamazon?! Alright, I'll take it emoticon



That was me on Saturday with my new hair! First time i've tried this little 'up-do' and I think I like it.

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  • WOUBBIE
    And I DO love the hair too!
    2605 days ago
  • WOUBBIE
    Glamazon? Nice, though I would have chosen Bronze Goddess, but that's just me...
    2605 days ago
  • WHOVIANGIRL23
    Love your blogs and your reasons, and you're so pretty! I've always been told I had a pretty face, and sometimes it was even followed up with "if only you would lose some weight". Friggin people. So I definitely agree with this reason, it's one of mine!
    2605 days ago
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  • STRONGCOURAGE
    I love that your posting these blogs-- the questions are so genuine and ones I (and I'm sure many) can relate to! Its the best that it is helping you of course, but I'm glad we get to benefit from your insights too :) I can totally understand that this is helping you- so don't undermine this...take it and run with it :D You are doing a positive thing mentally and emotionally to help you with your physical changes. Its all a preparation thing, so when the final results are in you will not only look the real beauty you want to be, but *feel* the beauty you really are! Keep it up! Ps. And yes, amazing hair...and man your arms are slim!! Keep up all your hard efforts---they are paying off :) emoticon
    2605 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/8/2013 7:53:36 AM
  • JUST-ELIZ
    I love your new hair do! You DO look Glamorous! So happy to hear these posts help keep you focused! emoticon
    2605 days ago
  • AEGISHOT
    You look glamorous, I love the hair-do, is it locks?
    2605 days ago
  • MAUREENREDUX
    Just keep focusing your energy into positives - - you will get past it by acknowledging the fears and moving on beyond them emoticon
    2605 days ago
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