I always hear about people having an "ah ha!" moment. And that's their turning point in their lives to make things better, to do things right and to make themselves proud. But not everyone has that moment. Sometimes it's a series of events that leads us to a conclusion. Sometimes it's just that moment where you say, "I've had enough!" Then you formulate a plan of attack.
I've never had that "ah ha!" moment. BUT i have had some amazing encouragement along the way. Sometimes just hearing a, "Go get'em" or "make me/you proud" or "You've got this" can continue to spark that drive to keep going.
I can see changes in me. I can see where my hard work is starting to pay off. It's just so hard sometimes to acknowledge it. It's as if I think that if I start to notice it, things will fall apart on me. The truth is, i'm working hard...harder then i'm used to working.
You've seen this picture before:
I was somewhere between 302-320+ pounds. I guess because i'm not positive of my weight then. I mean really, who wants to know their weight when you know it's just gonna make you cry and feel ashamed?
Now, here's where i start to notice changes. Here's a picture from this weekend:
I'm right around 258lbs.
Here's the other view:
(I needed a full length mirror so i sat it in my bathroom)
So i can see the changes happening.
What did it take?
It simply took some believing.
I can have others encourage me all day long, BUT until i started to believe in myself i was just playing a game. Now i'm in it to win my life back.
Here's another thing. All i'm really doing is walking. I started to run a little, but not enough to amount to anything heroic. I place one foot in front of the other and I keep on going.
This past weekend our training for the Susan G Komen, 3 day, 60 Mile Breast Cancer Walk called for 18 miles on Saturday and 15 miles on Sunday. This would DEFINITELY have been my longest distance to date.
On Saturday we completed 18.49 miles:
And on Sunday we ended the day with 15.76 miles:
This kind of training does NOT come without it's fair share of pain:
So now i'm babying my feet because this upcoming weekend is a 10/8 mile weekend. But i've had some amazing encouragement, loving and caring people in my life that are helping to move me forward.
Until next time...