Sunday, October 06, 2013
So I just decided to sign up for the Spartan Race with some friends. It's six weeks from now. I am so excited because I now have something specific for which to train and less excuses when it comes to exercise until then. The last time I completed an obstacle race (Warrior Dash), I loved how I was forced to overcome my self doubt that tried to stop me from completing different obstacles. It was such a good feeling. I am excited. I am going with another friend who struggles with his relationship to food and weight, so I think it's great that we're both doing well right now.
I have been logging my food into myfitnesspal.com. I think it is a bit more user friendly on the go when I only have my cell phone. I probably could use the one on here, but I don't have time to relearn how to use that. Anyway, the last couple of days, I've been way over the caloric intake that I intended. I usually intermittent fast during the weekdays and weekends become difficult. Intermittent fasting works for me because I can't seem to portion control consistently throughout the day. I hate going to bed hungry, so eating a lot when I get home is comforting to me and helps me sleep.
I also have been going way over my intended carb intake. Carbs sneak their way in. No wonder why I plateaued for months when I was eating peanut butter and greek yogurt. I will be done with yogurts by next weigh in and then I will just go through the rest of my peanut butter with keto cups. Then I plan to go strict keto for a couple of weeks at least. I might each kombucha, but it needs to come last in the day so I know that my other carbs are low enough to have it.
So although I'm not quite doing things perfectly, I think I'm on the right path.
Oh and even though the scale isn't moving, I'm wearing corduroys that wouldn't button a couple weeks ago...with a little bit of muffin top, but I'm okay with that. :)
I am glad that I am continuing to push myself, and although I'm not meeting my caloric goals, I am seeing each hurdle as a new way to challenge myself. It is frustrating that I am not under 200 yet, but I will find a way to make it happen! I WILL meet my overall goal to be bikini ready by my 27th birthday.
OH! And I was wondering yesterday why October 5 looked like such a familiar date. Well, late year on October 5, I had been eating according to plan for eight months (besides the overconsumption of peanut butter and greek yogurt), and then my supervisors switched my position because they told me I wasn't doing a good enough job. I was so devastated and turned to food for comfort. October 5 last year, I ate a pint of Ben and Jerrys and all bets were off. I gained forty pounds in three months. I just ate all my feelings of failure.
Well, long story short, I am on the right track on this particular October 5. I am in a better position at a different school. I might have feelings of self-doubt when it comes to my teaching, but I am doing the best I can and always trying to be better. I may slip up and eat things I don't plan, but I don't use that as an excuse to eat senselessly for months on end. Every day, every moment is another chance to turn it all around. Happy Sunday, SparkPeople!