10/2 ~ last blog

Couldn't decide on what to blog about today, but wanted to complete the challenge. Slowly my thoughts were pulled towards my daily life and activities, and how I relate to other people.

I wouldn't say I'm a people pleaser. If I'm unhappy with someone, they will eventually find out, even if I don't let it be known right away. But I'm not a mean person, either. Many things have happened in the last couple of weeks to throw me off my game, all this on top of it being a rough year, right from the first week in January.

BUT: today I wanted to take the opportunity to think of and be thankful for my God-given talents and how they rule my life. I'm very compassionate, maybe too much so. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, no doubts about how I feel. But this really is a good thing, because I can always see both sides of an argument. I always root for the underdog, always want to take care of the strays and make sure they're OK. As I've gotten older, I've been better able to handle my anger, and not let it spew out all over everyone, which is a reflection of God's patience with me. My job is serving elders in my community; I have had many positions in my church that dealt with helping the kids, either teaching Sunday school or being youth leader for four years. I'm always a cheerleader for anyone who is doing their best or trying to improve themselves.

Sometimes I wish I were made of sterner stuff. Crying at church because I'm thinking of my mom is always embarrassing. Taking it to heart when someone makes an offhand comment about something they feel I did wrong is tough, especially when it comes from someone who I feel has their life in order and control. Not being able to visit the SPCA because it always makes me long to adopt ALL the animals, especially the cats, is something I have to deal with.

But for the most part, I like my open, tender-hearted personality. I like the fact that people know they can count of me if I say I'll do something for them. And I like the many possibilities God has opened up for me because I feel I'm here on earth to help others.