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Tuesday, October 01, 2013

Background: I've lost about 86 pounds and kept it off a little over 4.5 years after more than 5 decades of being overweight or obese. Thanks to Weight Watchers, SparkPeople, Curves, the YMCA, Galloway Run-Walk-Run that showed me what to do, and a lot of failed diets over years and years that taught me what not to do, I'm living at the weight I've wanted to be since I was in junior high school!! I'm training for my second and third half marathons. I believe I could maintain even without the running, but I have come to love the running!!

OK now. I weighed 125.8 Sunday morning, 126.6 on Monday morning, and 126.0 today. I entered my weight into SP today and it now shows me as 3 pounds under goal. Even though my favorite weight is 126, I changed my goal to 129 several months ago because I was just tired of seeing my ticker showing me over goal. I found it de-motivating, so I changed it. I know this is just playing games, but it helped me for my ticker not to be telling me I was over goal. After months of trying to get to 126, with my ticker listing 129 as my goal, I made it to 126. Go figure.

For a while I had my ticker set on number of weeks of maintenance, and in my own mind I considered myself maintaining as long as I was under 135. But that felt a little too loosey-goosey. I could look at other options or even - would you believe - eliminate the ticker from my page and postings. I could, but I like that visual. Powerful snapshot of success. I deserve it.

You know, I know that when it comes to weight, I'm not totally sane. Perhaps sanity is overrated, or maybe I really shouldn't write blogs like today that demonstrate my obsession, or at least lack of balance, on this issue. I could write them and not post them, but what fun is that? I'm retired now so I'm no longer concerned that things online are going to curtail my professional options.

So, should I change my ticker goal weight back to 126? I'm thinking not yet. Being under is not a negative. Let's see if I'm going to maintain 126. Three days is not a test. And yesterday I was .6 over. I get it. Weight fluctuates. I don't like it, but I get it.

I'm laughing at myself now. Maybe really someday in the not too distant future I will find the strength to give up my scale obsession. I gave up the mindless eating. I gave up sitting most of the time. I gave up not caring about my health and appearance. But this may be the hardest one to give up yet!!
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    okokok- I'll get up off my arse and get busy!
    1662 days ago
    If you are considered obsessed, then so am I! I would prefer to say that we are hyper-vigilant about meeting our goals (and maintaining the ones we meet). Just reading your blogs makes me feel better because I now know that there are others out there who are going through the same thing.
    1662 days ago
    1663 days ago
    The scale is just a way to keep score and in the field of weight maintenance it's the best score keeper we have. It's a tool to use to your benefit! I'm just a couple pounds from goal and my thoughts are that when I get to goal I'm going to turn my ticker into a maintenance range. I want to maintain between 102 - 106, so I'm going to set my ticker up to show that. I haven't figured out exactly how yet, but that's what I want to do.
    1663 days ago
    You know, I think WHATEVER WORKS! emoticon

    I found it was just too too much to put all the weight I need to lose on my ticker. I put 10% of my body weight ala WW and then five pound increments. I like lots of reinforcement. Reinforcement good! This is a lifestyle change and happy is part of it.

    (...but then, you ARE talking to the woman who uses a Pokeman slogan to keep from going off her food plan. Again, WHATEVER WORKS.)

    Bottom line, I agree with all the others who remind you of your MAGNIFICENT SUCCESSES of which maintenance may be the greatest. Dunno. Never been there. Never done that. I'm watching YOU for tips to see how it's done.

    emoticon ... and you WILL DO IT.

    1663 days ago
    Our obsession with numbers is funny. I consider myself "at goal" if I'm within 5 pounds under or over. But, that was allowing me to be OK at 14o and I'm not. Silly as it is 140 is a nemesis number for me; I get stuck there! Then, too easily creep up. Old fears die hard. Sooooo, I changed my ticker and reset my goal at 133 from 135. It's just more comfortable. A "stopper" if you will at a maximum of 138. Alas the price I pay is being "over goal" at 134. Worth the price. I would wait and change my ticker with the new year if I were still comfortably maintaining under goal. We always have choices. emoticon
    1663 days ago
  • GABY1948
    emoticon Marsha! You can do ANYTHING! The scale is an obsession to me for sure. And I am not even at maintenance, though, I know I will get there after reading so much on your blogs and Barb's blogs and others...I BELIEVE I can do it. But as for the scale? When I really have a doubt, I have dh weigh me and not tell me but just let me know and then I go from there...usually it is my mind telling me that I feel "fatter" so he weighs me and so far it has been a lie.

    So, all that said, I KNOW YOU CAN GIVE it up if you truly want to. You can do ANYTHING! You are a HERO emoticon
    1663 days ago
    Marsha, Marsha, Marsha! Would it help you to know you're not alone in "rethinking" what that number on the ticker should say? I was reading MJREIMERS blog the other week, and she was having a similar conversation with herself. While I haven't blogged about it, I have had the internal conversation about whether I should "accept the sustainable reality" and bump mine up from the 122... but nawwww...

    It really is all about the games we play to keep ourselves motivated in maintenance! Whatever works, right? All I know is I look at you, and I see HEALTHY! Good job, fellow maintainer!

    1663 days ago
    Yay obsession: it's working for you!! (And: there's a healthy dose of self-mocking irony infused into your obsession anyhow!)
    1663 days ago
    I say leave the ticker. Heck, change your ticker goal weight to 130 :)

    It's ALL a game. My goal weight is 140, but I know that I won't really feel like I've met that goal until I am under 140. I totally get the crazy.
    1663 days ago
    I think you're awesome no matter what the ticker says! Do what you have to do to feel good!
    1663 days ago
    I understand the obsession with the scale, but now it is a fun game for you to play and not a weapon to beat yourself up with! YES, you deserve it!

    For years I never posted my picture on Spark, and even resisted meeting fellow Sparkers in my town. But now that I am no longer teaching I'm letting it all hang out. It's really liberating, isn't it?

    I think working toward a lower weight weight is just another way you are keeping yourself motivated and keeping things fresh. You go, girl! One day soon I hope to be in the same place you are!

    1663 days ago
    From one mildly insane person to another, whatever makes you feel good is what you should be doing-ticker included! HUGS!
    1663 days ago
    Gadzooks, woman- you are an amazing success story and you can put whatever you want on your ticker- it obviously is working for you!

    1663 days ago
    I understand (not from experience yet) that maintenance is no easier than any weight loss, so I'll support your "obsession" if it's what's keeping you motivated and focused to maintain your magnificent success.
    And when you're ready to be more loosey goosey, I'll support you then too! It's YOUR journey. I appreciate you sharing it with us.
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  • FROSTY99
    emoticon You accomplished much harder goals and you can do this too!
    1663 days ago
  • CAROL494
    1663 days ago
    I have no advice on what you should do with your ticker, but I'm tremendously impressed and inspired both by your weight loss and how long you've kept it off.
    1663 days ago
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