An Update from Jean...finally

Sunday, September 29, 2013

I guess that I have been away for a long time, huh.....? I am sorry for the absence but please know that I have carried all of you with me... but letting go of yesterday has taken it's toll! For instance there have been too many thoughts in many different directions..... I had never thought about what it would mean not to be in agriculture in any way or not working at all! So it is just going to take time that I hadn't planned for. In other words, I have been learning the true meaning of Nicole Sobon's words when she says that sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over.

Health update....

I made it through chemo w/o 9/9. My counts did drop but when we did blood work the following Monday, the Dr. immediately gave me an IV liter of sodium. I was not weak after that for the next 9 days so I don't know what it means now as I was out walking with the church group and suddenly I could not do but .3 miles and I had been at about 3/4 mile earlier....I don't have blood work until the 7th. This is very different since that was a weekly happening in WI, then I had to wait to see what I could do on my own.... I am getting excellent care here also, it is just a different philosophy.

While I was going to the WI clinic all dental work was to be scheduled before chemo., we have postponed chemo for a week so I can "catch-up" hence tomorrow I will have dental surgery that really needs to be done! (wish me luck) The next round of chemo will be for the week opening 10/7. So it is still going to be a little while before I get back o everything. I seem to be able to only get on the computer about 45 minutes in the morning and maybe another 30 minutes later in the afternoon. I was used to spending about 6-7 hours a day in WI so even that is an adjustment to learn about how to deal with my passion and the ideal that I have to be perfect or I am not doing it.

It really feels good to be talking to you! My cats really like it here and have adjusted well! Some of you will appreciate this!!!! I had a copperhead snake in my front yard this morning, One thing that I dreaded about coming back and I really enjoyed about the Northwoods....NO POISONOUS SNAKES!

I will try to use this time to at least do something and would love to have your input at how to make it work!!!

Take care and know that you are very special to me.....even when I am not there!

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    I am so glad you are back! I'm sorry to be so late in responding, for some reason I missed your blog when you posted it. emoticon
    1724 days ago
    You are amazing and stronger than I can imagine!
    1726 days ago
    You've been through so much and you still have a great attitude. I'm sending prayers and well wishes.
    1726 days ago
  • GABY1948
    Great that you are back!

    1727 days ago
  • DJSHIP46
    So lovely to hear from you again and know that even though you're still in transition life is moving along. When I could do much gardening, I use to knit & crochet, tend my house plants or read... not much exercise but it was creative and/or I just enjoyed it. So many hours in front of a computer isn't really very healthy either, I'm trying hard to break that habit now and find more active ways to occupy my time.
    1727 days ago
  • MOGAL1946
    So glad to hear from you. Keep that strong attitude and you will conquer all that life dishes out. One day at a time and concentrate on the positives. Know that we are all with you and thinking of you while sending hugs across the miles. emoticon
    1727 days ago
    emoticon you are in my prayers. I have started a writing journal, just a bit a day because soon I will not be online much due to travel.
    Jo Ann

    1727 days ago
    You will be in my prayers. Don't overdo. If you get tired, just rest. Your body needs it.
    1727 days ago
    Cancer certainly diverts your plans, but it takes precedence. Good luck!
    1727 days ago
    I am so glad to hear from you You do not have to be perfect I am starting to draw and try different forms off art work Starting to write my thoughts and memory down I all so am going to learn more relaxing and distressing exercise Keep you in my prayer and never forget God is with you Love you my Friend
    1727 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    As long as you are in agreement with the care philosophy, it's all good! Change takes time until we adapt. And you my dear SparkFriend have recently had much change.

    Perfection is an illusion - none of us can ever be as perfect as we would like. I prefer to think of myself as a recovering perfectionist - and I am much happier this way. It is exhausting to try and be "perfect" all the time. It is far better to give something my all and my best shot and be happy.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers, and I send good wishes and vibes your way as your treatment continues!

    1727 days ago
    I have missed you, too.
    So glad to have you back.
    You will adjust to the new rhythms of your life.
    Change takes time and perseverance.
    You can do it.
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    1727 days ago
    emoticon Glad you are back, you are in my prayers.
    1728 days ago
    Thanks, dearest, Jean. This is what your friends needed. Keep in touch this way until you're strong. ALL your friends understand that you are in treatment and exhausted. They and I love you very much. emoticon emoticon back!
    1728 days ago
    Oh did I ever miss you. You are a very strong woman capable of doing mind blowing things! You are starting over yes, make it a totally awesome thing! Glad to hear the health care is going well ,. Hope the dental problems are taken care of for you quickly and easily. If possible send us some pictures of your new digs! Sending you very tender loving hugs,. Pat
    1728 days ago
    So good to hear from you. I am with WildKat emoticon . We are here for you. To talk. To listen. To just be. Prayers, Herd
    1728 days ago
    It is so great to hear from you. I have missed reading your bloggs.

    Take care!.

    1728 days ago
    great to have you back been thinking about you you are in my prayers all the best
    1728 days ago
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    1728 days ago
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