thanks for the caring remarks-
Saturday, September 28, 2013
hi on this lovely fall saturday
this support network is a God send to me.
i have to tell you - my heart and my soul are breaking because i know my son does not love himself enough to DO SOMETHING to improve his health. i was discussing a better diet with him - i try to do my very best at home - especially since i am also trying to get my weight down.
he just blurted out - 'so i will have my gall bladder out and i will be ok'. to say how shocked i was - well i nearly fell off my chair.
what the heck is he thinking. can he not remember a few days ago how the pain was!? he is complaining how awful the meds are and how he will be glad to finish with them - the side affects and all!
why would he treat himself like that - just plainly dismiss it all - i don't understand except to say - he does not think he is worth changing - he is too lazy to make the changes needed or he just DOES NOT GET IT. he will get older - every day that passes his body says - 'hey mister - i will get back at you for the way you treat me!'
i am breaking my back to shop, prepare and feed good meals.
the person who should be supporting me and smiling and thanking God i am here is not doing that - and the other person who i take care of - well all i can say is i don't believe i can bear any more of these burdens.
i will engage all of my intelligence and muster all the courage i can to take care of myself - but it is just so very disappointing.
thank you again for every good wish and thought you send my way!