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Day 90: What have I been doing??

Thursday, September 26, 2013

I realized that today marks 90 days on SparkPeople... 90! That's 3 months of what should be progress which has resulted in TWO 2-week periods of backtracking, not tracking, and not losing weight. Why does this process have to be so frustrating... I've barely lost in that time. I know I should be happy for continuing to get right back on the wagon after falling off, but I wanted to be so much further than I am right now, and it does suck and I am super frustrated and down about it. I get so excited for everyone else who has seen their body change and lost some weight and I just want that to be me, too. I want to know what that sense of accomplishment is like. In high school, I flirted right around 220. Since college, I've gotten past 250 and I desperately want to be back to high school (and maybe beyond) by the time my semester is over. Seeing 242 on that scale has been heartbreaking - because of the weddings, it's been stagnant for over 3 weeks.

I also want to apologize to all of my Spark Friends for lacking in participation on the site, whether it be checking in personally with your posts/blogs or being active on my own page. I've been using school as an excuse and although getting Facebook on my phone is much easier than staying connected on here, I know there's no reason why I can't log onto my computer for a half hour each day to check in.

I'm so good with making healthy lunches each day but when I get back to the apartment at night, I get cravings for all sorts of things. We have very limited beverages here, so that's a non-issue, but I always feel like I'm justified in eating more than a serving size of something (why only make one quesadilla when we know everything is great in pairs?!). I try to pre-plan meals and keep in mind to add salads instead of starchy sides, but I still feel as though I'm always closer to the high end of my calorie range if not over my suggested daily intake. Does anyone else have that problem?? Maybe I just need to have less options, although then I struggle with trying to have a "balanced" meal with fruits, veggies, meat, etc.

I'm back on my C25k training plan. I know, I know, I did a 5k on Saturday. But there is always room for improvement on my speed and stamina and I am determined to finish this thing out. SO as of right now, my next day is Week 6 Day 3. Then we get into the RUNRUNRUN sections to finish it out. Woo! I dread the day when I will have to take my running inside but I am determined not to give up like I did last year. I CAN be a runner for life, and I hope to do so.

Hope everyone has been doing well this week. TGI(almost)F!
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    We get it. There is no need to apologize -- we get it. Have I ever shared this blog with you?
    1672 days ago
    Glad to see you are getting back on track! Don't be discouraged. Wedding weekends are hard to make it through without some type of that wedding season is hopefully over you can get back to normal weekends. Keep tracking..even if you go over..then you can look back and see where may be something could have been cut out. Congrats on finishing a 5K on Sat!! Super exciting! :) I just finished W5D2 today. It kicked my butt! haha..happy Friday!(almost)
    1673 days ago
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