Thursday, September 26, 2013
Today I got the official rejection email from the job I wanted so bad. I've had a few days to cope though, because I knew it wasn't happening. But I am at least in the neighborhood of devastated... I loved it... it was so perfect... it seemed like The Answer to why all these unfortunate things happened. It seemed like the door that opened, when the others closed.
It's so hard to tell myself it will be for the best, and everything happens for a reason, at this moment. I am very sad over losing this one.
However, I feel happy today anyway despite that, if you can believe it. Doesn't make sense to me either, but I'm going with it. I went out to lunch with a friend at work and another friend who was also laid off (but as a regular employee, had to leave immediately That Day unlike me). I had a delicious amazing salad in beautiful fall weather and laughed a lot with friends, it's hard to be a grump after something like that. I came back to my desk and found a Dunkin Donuts hot chocolate that another coworker bought for me :) In a few days I'm going to start a new chapter in my life, maybe one that I didn't exactly choose, but I'm excited to make it good, somehow... even without That Job I Wanted So Freaking Bad. I'm getting my hair cut this weekend and a manicure next week, and dog sitting for a friend next weekend, very excited to have a (sweet, adorable, hilarious) pug around!
weird, I know.