Post Cheat Day Gloom
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
I was looking back at entries after looking at my weight loss chart, and trying to see what worked on weeks that I lost a lot of weight. Generally, it was getting lots of exercise, it seems.
Work makes it so hard to make it to the gym. It is frustrating because it makes me feel much better.
I got majorly depressed Sunday going into Monday. I wonder if it was from the food I ate at the Big E. I think it was a combination of things, but looking back and noticing how down I got when I was eating crappy food. Some of it may be just related to the feelings of lost control, but it might also be from the actual food itself. It might mess up my hormones. I was also depressed because I fell behind on my work and the season finale of Dexter BROKE my heart. That sounds silly, but it really upset me.
I have been having cravings since the Big E. I ate lots of peanut butter last night (which can be a trigger food for me) as a negative coping mechanism for the way I felt. I ate some today, but kept it to a serving and mixed in some cocoa powder, stevia, and coconut oil. I have been too busy to make the actual keto cups, so I just eat a little bowl of that.
I feel a bit better today emotionally, but a fog continues to lurk. I hope it is lifted tomorrow.