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How things can change...

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Fast.. what was going to be a day of blogging about my bike ride I did this weekend and how I felt after the ride and the next day which was "high" and happy and feeling like everything was going well. and then today.. I hear bad news.. which has hit me hard. my oldest daughter has cervical dysplasia which is pre cancer she was diagnosed last year and 2 weeks ago they found more which all in all it has a chance to be cervical cancer. I am so trying to be strong for her which I did not let her see my fear or my weakness and now that she is not with me right now and I am alone. I am letting it out.. and I am doing it in a wrong way. I am an emotional eater and my emotions are so high right now.. with that and the huge bike ride that I am doing for charity this Friday I am so on edge I know I am not making sense and I know I am rambling so I am going to cut this short.

I will say that being here and typing and thinking and knowing that I will get a hug from you all makes me feel much better and the feeling of giving up and just eating and eating and eating is replaced with the feeling of hope, and faith.. which I know is I me.. but needs to come out

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    Anita, I am praying for your daughter and your family. Remember that activity and eating well are are the prescription for our well being too. Pounding out a few miles will help with the stress. I pray that the Docs are working their very best on your daughters behalf.... emoticon
    1666 days ago
    Take a breath. Breath in, and out. And in again.
    I hope she's getting good care, and hoping you can be there for her.
    And do the ride. Not doing it won't help her, or you. Doing it punches cancer in the eye (a little, at least).
    1670 days ago
  • GEORGE815
    Hard to have the strength to eat right when you have so much stress. Hope you can be strong for your daughter and she heals. Bless you and your family.
    1670 days ago
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    1671 days ago
  • HILLSLUG98239
    I'm glad you trust us enough to share your feelings with us.
    1672 days ago
    MsAnita, your entire family is in my prayers, as is the medical staff who will be working with your daughter.
    Love and Hugs and Prayers!
    1672 days ago
    Hang in there and be kind to yourself. I had your daughter's diagnosis twenty years ago and I'm just fine today. They can do amazing things these days!
    1672 days ago
    I'm so sorry, Anita :( My prayers are with you and your daughter during this difficult time.

    1672 days ago
  • NEWAT56
    Hugs and prayers. I am an emotional eater so I can only imagine, but be strong for your daughter. Eat healthy and continue to exercise so your physical strength will be there for her too!
    1672 days ago
    Definitely hugs and prayers for both of you. I am so sorry!
    1672 days ago
    emoticon I think it's going to be good for you to do the bike ride. It will make you feel better to doing something like that with your body even if you can manage good eating right now. emoticon
    1672 days ago
  • ELLES26
    emoticon Hope she is getting great care and wishing the best for her!
    1672 days ago
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