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Tuesday, September 24, 2013

This has been an odd year for me health-wise. I went through a whole GI Series and happily found out all I have is Irritable Bowel Syndrome which is annoying but not fatal and can be controlled if I avoid MY FAVORITE FOOD ITEMS. Dude, if I could do that, I would NOT need SPARKPEOPLE!!!!

Yeah, just stop eating white bread or baked goods or anything with flour - which is IN ALL THE DELICIOUS THINGS. I have had feeble starts and attempts at it and for now I'm going to claim progress, not perfection.

Add the IBS to what I believe is the beginning of perimenopause -- hot flashes AND month long periods -- and I am a sad, angry cranky mess who spends too much time in the bathroom and not enough time enjoying my brief go-round on this big blue planet.

HOWEVER :) I don't like to blog unless I've got something eventually positive to say, and in that vein, I enjoyed one of the featured articles on the Sparkpeople Blog today:
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1. I'm reinventing my fitness program: I have tons of Firm DVDs, Couch to 5K and NOW I've added Yoga to the mix. There's a GREAT local yoga spot in the next town and I really like it. I'm going to invest in the 10 class card (4 month expiration) and go to as many Intro to Yoga classes they offer (right now, 2 a week, but I'll be lucky if I go to 1 a week) so I can learn the correct form in class, but I'm going to supplement it with a DVD and my *NEW* Gaiam beginner's yoga kit I bought yesterday from Amazon - complete with yoga mat, block and band. I'm psyched to get my TWIST on!

2. I'm refreshing my meal plan. But let me get real. I'm restarting even HAVING a meal plan after eating whatever the heck I wanted and suffering both in the bathroom and on the scale. I know what to do! I think we all do. We're all amateur nutritionists at this point in our life!! But I have to TAKE ACTION and LIVE it. Knowing it is not enough. So I'm going to try to keep in my daily calorie range and try to make sure that the QUALITY of my food matters more than the calories. Fresh veggies and fruits, whole grains, lean meats, some dairy, healthy fats, no fake crap. I also have a BAD Diet Pepsi addiction that I'd like to kick to the curb. I keep reading all these articles about how aspartame triggers insulin like real sugar and I have ENOUGH PROBLEMS with my blood sugar. So the plan is to phase out all sodas, even diet, and stick to iced tea, water with lemon and the occasional San Pellegrino with lime if I wanna get a little fancy now and then.

3. Re-evaluate my priorities. That means prioritizing exercise. According to big busy bearded Dr. Andrew Weil, if one has Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and the Insulin Resistance/Metabolic Syndrome that goes with it, one needs to exercise 30-45 minutes every single day without exception. Every. Single. Day. On one hand, that's hard to swallow since I am convinced that I am the reincarnation of Cleopatra, or else why do I feel the need to lounge around, give orders, float on barges, wear a ton of eyeliner and play with snakes all the time?? On the other hand, in my past life, I didn't live very long and didn't get to be a middle aged perimenopausal broad with digestive and hormonal disorders that require daily exercise if I want a decent quality of life. AND any kind of hope of putting my body back in balance. So my inner-Cleopatra is going to have to come out in other ways, the lounging and floating on barges days are over. I've got lots of reasons to lose weight other than looking good in smaller pants. I am a pain in the butt -- I cannot be motivated by threats or promises. What motivates me is not wanting to feel miserable every day. That's the truth. That's my priority. Improve my daily quality of life. I would also like to get off all prescription drugs, and the only way to do that is to lose at least 100 pounds. So before I go looking for some wheat/sugar/fatbomb baked good, I am going to stop and think about getting the Big Pharma monkey off my back.

4. Return to my goals. I need to revisit and tweak them and that will be my "project" for this week. Yes, I'd like to lose weight and get off drugs but it would be nice to break my goals down into smaller attainable goals with REWARDS because rewards rock.

5. Rejuvenate my wardrobe: I did buy some new walking shoes. I also picked up a pair of quick-laces so my sneakers aren't an issue anymore. I am online looking for some cool plus size yoga gear because I don't want to be doing a downward facing dog and have my shirt come downward around my neck putting my smashed sports-bra encased boobs all out on front street.

I am also trying to let go of bitterness and resentment, they don't serve me at all and are a waste of energy that I can be channeling into positive things. YES it sucks that I can't do whatever I want without consequences. Yes it sucks that I'm not 17. Yes it sucks that if I want to be healthy I have to guide myself in better directions and stay away from things that are AWESOME in the moment but are HELL on my system. I'm an adult. I need to act like one and ACCEPTING THIS FACT is going to be key to my positive attitude. I had a lot of fun eating crappy food. You could say I've had more than my share. I'm not missing ANYTHING.

I **AM** unfollowing all kinds of recipe boards on Pinterest though, half the time I think the Devil himself posts some of that crap up there. I don't need to see that stuff!!!!!

I love Fall, it's my favorite favorite favorite time of year! I also seem to have that old "back to school, start over" mentality hard wired in my brain, so I always feel up for getting it together when the air gets a little crisper and the leaves start to change. Plus, FRESH APPLE CIDER!
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    Also, I did think that this post was entitled "Dumpling Thoughts Here".

    I was looking for an nice big bowl of dumplings in the emoticons, but no luck, so you get a donut instead. emoticon
    1673 days ago
    ANY EXCUSE to go to Target!!!!!

    Thanks for the links!!!!! emoticon emoticon
    1673 days ago
    "I am convinced that I am the reincarnation of Cleopatra, or else why do I feel the need to lounge around, give orders, float on barges, wear a ton of eyeliner and play with snakes all the time??" HAHAHAHHAHAH!!!

    As for plus-sized yoga gear---Moving Comfort makes cute stuff. I have these and love both of them.

    Athletica makes super cute stuff, but it is super pricy. My yoga pants are from target and I like them as much as the fancy ones because they re lightweight enough to stay cool.
    1674 days ago
    You can still wear the eyeliner!
    Thanks for the motivational blog.

    1674 days ago
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