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"Is there anything wrong?"

Monday, September 23, 2013

Yesterday, 2pm rolled around and I was just getting out of the car. My dad was dropping me off at choir practice. For a 1/2 hour we all sat around and talked, still catching up from before the summer break. Once we got started, the director reminded us that we were performing next Sunday...and I found out that the performance will be recorded and PUT ON YOUTUBE!!! Oh my gosh! Suddenly, my nerves shot way up.

Next thing, i know, even though we were only practicing, I found my legs shaking and I was on the verge of a panic attack. Even though I joined the choir on my birthday in February, I've only performed with them twice so far- at the end of May and more recently, August 4th. But neither of those performances were recorded.

Then last night, while on Facebook, one choir member started talking to me:
F(riend): Hi, are you doing well?
M(e): I'm doing okay I guess, best weekend or day I've had in a while lol

F: You look so sad at choir
M: Oh...I certainly don't mean to. Might just be cuz I'm dead tired

And then we went on to other things. Then again this morning I get another message from someone else...

F #2: Hey, are you okay these days? I don't know you well but it seems as though you are going through some stuff. Let me know if there's anything I or we can do for you :)

I'm not sure how to tell them that not only do I think my confidence took a big nosedive over the summer, -not that I had much to begin with- and that I find some of them like F #2 kinda intimidating... emoticon

There's nothing really wrong per se. My life just never stops, there's always something happening.
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    There are so many videos put every day on youtube that probably the only persons that will see it are people at the choir and their family/friends. If you see it that way, it can be less stressful for you ;-)

    Just have fun at the choir and don't mind the video :-) If you enjoy the moment, everything should be okay.

    Please give us some news next week!

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  • MMELLA40
    You'll be okay. I agree with King_Slayer. The best you can do is be honest. Tell them how you feel. Something the biggest monsters are in our mind. We make them up and then we can let them out. Typically people comfort you and make you feel better about the whole situation. I bet it will work out. Best of luck! emoticon
    1733 days ago
    Be honest with them! Explain that you are having some confidence issues and yes, even let F#2 know that you are intimidated by them and explain why, as best as you can. People generally react well to honesty and it may go a long ways towards making you feel more confident and more comfortable!
    1733 days ago
    I used to receive such comments when I did shift work. If you are dead tired there is a reason for it. Not sleeping well, stress, whatever.
    As for youtube, I wouldn't be comfortable with it myself. I hope it goes well for you!
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