so far so good
Friday, September 20, 2013
It's day four of my return to spark people and I'm feeling really great about my progress thus far.
Each morning I wake up, have a healthy breakfast (usually non dairy yogurt, granola and fruit) before getting on the elliptical for at least 40 minutes and hitting the weights for another 20. Afterwards, I login to spark people to plan my meals for the day. I also spend some time reading motivational blogs and articles and practicing my relaxation breathing for the moments when my family will inevitably stress me out.
Self caretaking isn't easy.
As a mom we're taught to put our family's needs first and back burner or own desires but I'm starting to realize that this habit is what contributed to my weight gain in the first place. Instead of paying attention to my very real need for ALONE TIME, I ignored myself each and every time my daughter or boyfriend whined how much they needed me. And the stress of putting their needs above my own brought about the same conclusion every single time: me stuffing myself with"forbidden foods" as soon as i got five minutes to myself.
I can't live that life anymore.
And so today, after handling my four year old's temper tantrum on my own, I told my boyfriend that I was going for a twenty minute walk. When he asked why I replied,"because I earned it".
And I had.
Before I would have rewarded/soothed myself with chips but...I don't want to be that person anymore.
Because ultimately, emotional eating only leads to weight gain and more depression and that's not the life I chose to lead.
I deserve so much more.
And so do you.