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Sometimes I get really really really brave... and depressed....

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Okay... Here is the deal. Peeked at the scale today and am up ANOTHER pound... at first I didn't care because I took a picture which you will see because i am being way brave ...( ughhhhh, i'm sorry you have to see this.) and I saw some changes in my body. Looking at it now, I noticed that I'm wearing different underwear, in the before one i am wearing lower cut ones and also... I have been using a tanning lotion which makes me look thinner. So I am not sure i these are actual results, seeing as my measurements aren't THAT significant in the difference. If i move the measuring tape even a tad I get a totally different measure. My body is so weirdly shaped.

I know my eating could be better... but maybe I am in denial. Maybe I am thinking I am doing okay when really I am not. If there is one thing I absolutely hate when dieting is tracking. It makes me feel SOOOO HUNGRYYYYY all the time. Doesn't matter if i am eating every hour and still in my calorie range... when i track i starve. It is so mental. But.. I dont know what else to do. blah. Guess i'll go into diet mode and start eating celery and ice.

Here is the dreaded picture. I want to believe the results.. but with no weight loss and only small measurement changes... its really hard to. If I was smaller my weight and measurements would mimic that!

Cross your fingers that all this downer talk and poundage gained is from Aunt Flow and will be gone in a few days.

On a happier note... I have gone to the gym 17 times in the past 4 weeks. I go m-f and have only missed twice! (for all you people doing the math... i will go tomorrow so that will make it 18/20 weekdays.)
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    You are doing amazing... 18/20 days at the gym! That is something to be proud of and focus on! You can do this!
    1707 days ago
    "ughhhhh, i'm sorry you have to see this."

    "and also... I have been using a tanning lotion which makes me look thinner. So I am not sure i these are actual results"

    "My body is so weirdly shaped."

    "I know my eating could be better... but maybe I am in denial."

    " Maybe I am thinking I am doing okay when really I am not."

    "Here is the dreaded picture. "

    * (after about a 2 minute pause) #wow....

    I know that you did also say some very neutral things about yourself (some even bordering on good), but they kind of got drowned out.
    1707 days ago
    Just stopping by and wanted you to know that I can totally see a difference. Keep up the great work! Even when you don't see/feel the results. Whatever you're doing is WORKING. Way to go!!
    1707 days ago
    Hi, I want you too look at your top part. Can't you see the different? I can, look how much smaller your top looks! Keep going your doing great! Wish I was doing so well.
    1708 days ago
  • JISTY06
    You can definitely tell. The belly is much more tone and tight.
    Even if it's just a "tad" it's still a difference. Dont give up and dont be so hard on yourself. =)
    You can do this. You just have to find what works for you
    1708 days ago
    ok Let me tell you something my friend.. looking at those pictures YOU CAN TELL right off the bat the changes.. Let me show you..

    First start at the "muffin top" do you notice that in the first, you have it rounded and when you look at the after, it goes flatter?? There is one!

    Second look at the belly..Notice how swollen it looks at first? And then in second pic it is so much smoother? BECAUSE IT IS! :)

    Three..look at your legs, you CAN SEE they are firmer. So yeah, maybe your "inches" are not a lot off, but that is because you are turning all the flab into MUSCLE. And Firming up EVERYTHING. You are looking amazing girlie. Don't listen to the scale yet, just keep doing the gym and before you know it, you will take another picture and say WOW I LOOK GOOD! :)

    As for the tracking my friend, OBVIOUSLY it is something you SHOULD be doing, because you proved it is NOT working by not using it..hummmm lol So I CHALLENGE YOU to use it daily for 1 week and stay within your calorie range, don't forget though, if you are working out, you get to eat a bit more, just don't over-do it. And I will BET YOU that you lose at LEAST 2lbs on weigh in day. As for being hungry when you track, its not that you are hungry, it's that the tracking is telling your mind YOU CAN'T HAVE THAT, you will go over your calories big time etc.. IT makes you stay on track (hence the tracking name lol) So plan ahead, make up ALL your meals and your snacks, add then ALL to your tracker BEFORE the starts (or the night before) then when you eat what you brought, and you don't have to track, you are tricking your mind :) AND staying within your calories. BUT remember only eat what you tracked.. IT WORKS, I do it and have to restart that myself today (the planning that is, I track everyday) :)

    So now that I am done with my book, I will have to go have it published haha

    GL honey YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!! I KNOW YOU CAN..LOOK AT YOU!!!!!

    Hugs girl
    1709 days ago
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