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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Was at work until after 5...but I was done with the day when I left. Went to the church, ate at the community meal then went to class...tried a new one tonight. Love the one we were in...studying the Psalms. Went to the new one on 'finding our place in the church'. Loved the teacher (who happens to be a principal at a grade school) and the responses in the class.
Now let me share the rest of the story so that I can purge my soul. As many of you know I was a psych nurse for over 22 years. I became friends with a Dr and his wife a little over a decade ago...and loved them dearly. We shared life..and children ...and moral views...and time passed. I turned down a chance to go to work for him and instead ran a group called wounded hearts for women who had been abused. This went on for several years with a lot of success.
Suddenly, about 4 years ago, an explosion happened...Dr had a torrid affair with one of his counselors, left his wife, and is now still working to train the 2 sons to see her as mentally ill. He's nearly 50 and his new (now) wife is in her 20's. The whole story is bitter and ruthless. First wife lives a few houses away from them so that the boys will be able to go back and forth between the houses and is very ill and in and out of the hospital with medical problems that will eventually end up disabling her. she had chosen to be a stay at home mom, canned, cooked, worked in the church, and took care of the family. He lost his practice, went into massive debt, does not pay child support, and insists that sons call second wife mother. I cannot abide being around him. So...tonight he walks into the first study class with new wife and sits down...NOW...I have options. I can sit there...put on a happy face and grit my teeth through the class, or I can quietly leave, ask the Lord to forgive me for my intolerance, and go into another class and focus on my own sins instead of someone else's. And that is how I ended up in a class that taught me to focus on my relationship with God rather than following the regulations. I have so far to go in my walk...but it's like the SP program...just step by step.
I ordered the gravel today for the parking space and the walks. I need to get the sand too I'm getting excited about this plan again. Went through a dry spell but the sun's coming out again.
Be blessed and have a good night. You are my sunshines!!! Keep Sparkin'!!
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  • VOLARI52
    You did the right thing.....
    1736 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    You did the right thing. I'm sure you 'll really enjoy the other class
    1738 days ago
    Sometimes it's hard to believe that God has a plan, especially when flawed humans behave the way they do. Hard stuff indeed. Glad the garden is coming along again though.
    1738 days ago
    Oh my goodness!--That is a terrible story!--Poor yu!!! Lynda
    1739 days ago
    Oh life can be so hard sometimes. I know when I have been faced by super hard things like this, they often blow over easily for me, if I just hold tight to the Lord. And then in hindsight I see I learned quite a bit from something I never would have chosen to experience. When I was young I was in a hurry to correct things, do the exact right thing (whatever that was! and it was my idea not His). Now I can hear Him loudly "Be still and know I am God"! Hard hard stuff.
    (((HUGS))) and prayers :o)
    1739 days ago
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