Returning to the Wagon Yay! & Ugh!
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
So I have recommitted to my healthy goals after allowing a one - two punch to knock me off a few months ago. First, I had taken a before pic at 250 lbs, which I knew was going to be ugly but necessary. So I gritted my teeth and did it. After losing 10 lbs, I took another and looked no different. That was a punch in the gut. Then I went walking with my DH in my brand new, pretty shoes and he wanted to take an exploration trek through the fields. We ended up hemmed in in mud. When my beautiful shoes got muddy, that's what tore it. Disgusted, I told myself my shoes were as ugly as me.
Looking back, I should not have let such a little thing like that shake me from the great progress I was making. Why did I do that?? I could have been much lighter.
Alas, what's in the past is in the past and what lies before is no different from what lay before me then. I gained back the 10 lbs, but started again last Sunday. In 7 days, with PCOS and not taking any meds mind you, I lost 5 lbs in 1 week. Is that amazing or what?!!
So here's my trouble. I had a near perfect low-carb week in regards to my diet. I did eat some grapes, but I am not going to beat myself up and fall into the pit of perfectionism. I did great with my eating habits. I also did really good with exercise. The caveat? At 250 lbs, I walked 2 miles with running bursts the first 3 days. It was hard and each day got harder. By the third day, my knees were really begging for relief. On Thu, Fri and Sat, I simply walked the 2 miles. I rested on Sunday, by Monday, I walked again but much slower and not as far. Every day, my knee pain is worsening. After doing some reading, it appears I have a bruised meniscus on each knee and something going on with my PATB (burcitis). Like this is not good. I am motivated to work, I need to get this weight off before Christmas when we go visit family (one of whom is a New York model, for crying out loud!). Since I don't have locked knees, I'm guessing the meniscus' are not torn, but this can take weeks, maybe months of staying off of it.
This cannot be happening! Any wisdom? Advice? Encouragement?