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loose 10 punds by Christmas challenge 09/13/13

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Ok late but it's a start...
the challenge is to post answers to the following questions.:

I have been on spark for a few years (3) and squandered away quite a bit of time just trying to navigate around. I did manage to create quite a recipe collection that I used from time to time. I never joined any teams, I hated the spark wheel. I had no idea what to do with it or the points. I didn't visit my spark page. I was afraid of public pages. Afraid of people gathering information about me. Afraid that making commitments to would take too much time and when I failed everyone would know.
I know people that joined other calorie counting/fitness tracking sites but I just couldn't get myself to let go of Spark and all the time I had invested in it already. I made the decision to stay. I waited for my kids to be more independent. I needed to know that I had completely followed through with my parenting responsibilities before I put myself first. I know that sounds silly and most certainly my children would never have asked that of me. I just did it.
This time, with my kids grown into beautiful responsible people I decided to look at myself, my life and do what I know I can do and what I deserve to do for myself.
I signed up for the SparkCoach. One of the tasks was to visit my own spark page and put something on it. So I did. Another was to join a team. So I did. Another was to post on someone Else's blog so I did.
I was afraid, privacy issues and all that... I was also very quickly amazed at the show of support and camaraderie here. So I joined another team and another. I add people as friends. I give and receive support to people I don't know - yet! I am a part of a community and I am having fun!
I haven't shared my weight loss hopes and goals with many of the people in my (face to face) circle of influence (some people call these friends) because I can honestly say I don't know if I will get much support or if I really want support from them... I kind of want this to be my own personal journey. Maybe it's insecurity in myself? WHEN I get it this time I want to take all the credit. Does that make sense?
SparkCoach has encouraged me to get on board, the teams have instilled a sense of confidence and camaraderie that I am happy to have found.
Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed with all the emails and posting and responding. But that is me. I don't have a large friend base just for that reason. I feel so responsible to keep everyone happy and connected that in the end it is me that looses. I don't know how some people do it with work, groups, meetings, family. It amazes me. I envy those people.
I think it will be the teams and groups that keep me interested and on track but I have to be careful to not over commit or I just give up. And SparkCoach is a wonderful tool that is keeping me accountable.
Now that I can give spark goodies and now that I have won a few 20 pointers, I know it isn't fixed. I love the wheel.
I like the feel of the 55+ women team. I think this 10 pounds by Christmas is good for me. I want to make it but if I don't, well at least I will be another 105 days into my 'lifestyle' journey. This time I am not looking for a quick fix. I am looking for long term change. What I really see on Spark is that it is the people that have been here for a long time that have nurtured the friendships, that have committed to the whole life change and the journey. They set the example of the type of person I want to be.

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    Great Blog!! And good for you, for what you are doing with Sparkcoach and not looking for a quick fix! I wouldn't have been here this long if it weren't for the friends I have found on is like Facebook for a healthy lifestyle! We are all in this together and we know what it is to go through this journey and can lend support when needed! The rest is just fun, fun, fun! Even the wheel! Some of us get a big kick out of it, giving us 2's all the time! Well, maybe a tinge of aggravation thrown in- emoticon
    Glad you stuck with SP or else we never would have met!! Keep going and never give up! Good luck with the challenge! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1736 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    So glad that you are here, I like your challenge too, 10 pounds by christmas, will cheer you on.
    You are right to say you are not looking for a quick fix, that is good, I always call it a healthy lifestyle change.
    Took me awhile, but I don't intend to go back, spark is a great place to be, all the info and people, nothing like this anywhere else. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1736 days ago
    Good for you! I can so relate to your blog today. I have some of the same fears and feelings, and it's hard to overcome. I blogged when it was part of the challenge, and haven't done it again. OK, so something for me to do!! You've encouraged me to "get over it". And yes, my kids are independent enough for me to take care of me for a change. So, go do it! Huh!! Thanks for the inspiration today.
    1737 days ago
  • BECKY0111
    Great post. I can totally relate. I still haven't tried SparkCoach yet. I think I'll give it a whirl. Thanks for the inspiration!

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    1737 days ago
    I could have written that blog myself! All the same issues about taking care of others (kids) first , friendships, lifestyle change, etc. I am glad you're here now, because it is an amazing place and someone who obviously cares so deeply about everyone else's wellbeing deserves to care about themselves too. I am learning that -- finally. Hugs, and High Fives! You can do it -- and together we can do it!
    1737 days ago
    What a heartfelt blog!
    I think you're doing wonderful!!
    Do you think spark coach is really helping you be accountable?
    I need a LOT of help with the diet/calories!!
    I go over my daily allowance almost every single day!

    1737 days ago
    What a very sweet and sincere post. I joined SparkCoach awhile back too and find it helps me to keep thinking. I get the part about the solo journey and about appreciating the community aspect of the site at the same time. I hope your new commitment rewards you with what you want from it. At the beginning when I joined, I remember reading about the things that are required for success to happen and sharing goals with community is one of those steps that is critical - along with the food and exercises and renewals of goal settings periodically. Sounds like this is what you are doing. I am going to take a look at the 55+ group - it sounds like a good one.

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I've just been reading your posts for a short while but I think you are doing some really wonderful things for yourself. Congrats on this.
    1737 days ago
  • KMW987
    Thank you for sharing!

    I'm like you, where I want this to be a personal journey. I don't like people in real life checking up on me and asking me questions about it. I just feel like I'm being judged.

    But everyone here is so supportive and friendly and helpful! It still amazes me!
    I like the anonymity of the internet but the sense of community that is found here.....if that makes any sense.

    1737 days ago
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