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Any day that involves pretzels shaped like bats is a good day...

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I'm not gonna lie... I was in a BAD mood this morning. I ate last night, and I just woke up feeling so defeated and irritable and I just didn't want to care about any of this healthy living stuff anymore. I was definitely not in my happy place. But, for better or worse, I was so irritable I didn't even feel like eating before therapy, so I decided I would get food on the way home from therapy. Reward for forcing myself to go.

So... therapy. It wasn't bad. It wasn't great. It just... was. Honestly, it's more like having a conversation with a friend. We chat about random things more than we work on my issues, and that's just how I like it. That's one of the things I hated most about therapy... the therapist just sitting there staring at you like you're a lab rat and never giving any indication of caring about anything you say. That always drove me nuts. {Ironic, no?} She doesn't do that. We chat, we talk about things totally unrelated to therapy {she told me about a fabulous vegetarian Indian restaurant that's super close to me}, and so on. So... therapy was just therapy. More less as enlightening as going out for coffee with a friend. I would still prefer to not go to therapy, but if I have to go... and I do... it might as well be reasonably enjoyable.

Okay, so after therapy I had promised myself food on the way home. I went to Wendy's with every intention of having a burger and fries. While I was waiting in line, I decided I would have a grilled chicken samich and fries. I figured that was only half as bad. But through some divine intervention, I ordered chili. At the last moment, I said to myself... all eating crap is going to do is make you feel crappier and more defeated. Don't do that to yourself... and I didn't. I got chili and a grilled chicken samich. I came home, plugged it into my nutrition tracker, and all was well.

Since I was on such a roll from making a smart lunch choice, I decided to make a smart exercise choice also... as in, get off my ass and do it. So I took off my yoga pants and put on my shorts {it was pretty warm by that point, and my yoga pants are too long to walk for exercise in. They wrap around my feet and it's just bad.}, put my headphones on, and went out. The sun was, once again, blazing on me. Oh, sun, how I hate you... let me count the ways... But I set off for my walk anyhow. There was a cop sitting in a weird spot eyeballing me. Maybe I looked like I was setting up a deal or heading for a street corner or something. I was pretty sure I just looked like an out of shape chick gasping her way around the apartment complex. It's all about perception I guess. So, I did my best to focus on my tunes and not think so much about walking... yeah, that never works. I was muttering and cursing under my breath, and generally miserable... but I DID IT! I know people say exercise enjoyable and so on and so forth, but it's nothing of the sort for me. All that aside, though... I felt like a champ when I was finished! And then I got on here and started reading blog posts of my friends, and several of them were very motivational today. So I felt even better about making good choices. That was awesome.

Dinner was nothing special. Just dinner. After dinner we had an errand to run. While running the errand, I found a big bag full of small bags of pretzels. 50 cal per bag. Also, these pretzels are shaped like bats and jack-o-lanterns. Who doesn't love low calorie pretzels that look like bats and jack-o-lanterns!?!? So I got some of those.

After we were done in the store, I decided I wanted Starbucks. I ordered a tall light vanilla frap, and was content with that. I would have preferred the biggest size they had, but I stuck with a tall. That was actually the easier part. The hard part was convincing myself that it was okay, that I could fit it into my calories, and that one treat did not need to lead to eating every treat I could shove into my mouth before bedtime. It would seem that I have been successful!

That's pretty much the sum total of my day. It's almost time for bed, and I'm feeling really hopeful about tonight. Maybe tonight will finally be the night!

Hope everyone has had a great Tuesday!

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  • PICKIE98
    i think, all things considered, you really evaluated the temptations, even changed choices twice at Wendys..
    you did a good job. had to laugh about the cop.. see how it does not matter what others may be thinking, we stick to it and WE feel better, which is all that counts anyway!!
    1676 days ago
    Wow, it sounds like you had a great day! Good for you and you should be proud. emoticon
    1677 days ago
    You can do this! emoticon
    1677 days ago
  • OTTAWABOUND had a successful day. My doctor told me that getting some moderate exercise every day, even if I'm not losing weight, does really, really good things for my body.

    My fall back (and boy, can I relate to the walking and cursing) is throwing on some stuff I loved dancing to as a teenager and doing 15 minutes of that. I also sing along at the top of my lungs. Makes the cat (and husband, if he's home) crazy, but it gets me moving!

    Way to go.
    1677 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Halloween pretzels? Good stuff! Seems like you had a pretty good day overall after a rough start! Keep it up!
    1678 days ago
  • JO88BAKO
    I'm so glad your therapy went well. You made a very good choice with lunch, good for you!! AND you went for your walk, awesome!! You are making good choices. I'm working hard to not eat from 8pm to 8am. This is supposed to lower cholesterol, and lower the inflammation in your body. The inflammation makes your body insulin resistant so it doesn't use insulin effectively. Hope you have a really great Wed. One good choice at a time, one day at a time. You can do it!!
    1678 days ago
    First, let me start off by saying, I am fully convinced Starbuck's is the devil's own creation. The DEA spends billions of dollars a year on trying to get crack off of the streets, when in reality, they should be cracking down on Starbucks.

    Anyway, I am proud of you for getting out there and doing it. I am proud of the food choices you made. Great job! I would love to have some of those little bags of pretzels! I may have to look for them too.

    You are doing a fantastic job, and you need to keep up the awesome work.
    1678 days ago
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