Ashamed

I feel so ashamed of my inability to stick with any diet for more than 3 months. I'm sick, and in so much physical pain it is hard to even get out of bed. BED? What bed? I'm so big I have to sleep on the couch. My bed hurts my back too much.

I know I should be feeling positive, but I'm not. I was working out 2 days ago, and started bleeding from my belly button, again. This is the same problem that derailed me a year and a half ago. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just not meant to get healthy.