SUNSETINAZ

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Saturday, September 14, 2013

emoticon I am struggling with anxiety, good intentions, and inconsistency. emoticon

How do I feel about this? Look at the pictures surrounding my blog...
anger, shame, not so good about me, tired, tired of, numb. Sometimes I want to crawl into a corner and disappear. I wonder if I will ever move from flight to fight for myself.

The results?
Mindless eating and spending (purchasing) several projects started managing my hoarding; apparently I want to change, but not enough to follow through with those changes. Low motivation.

The consequences?
My weight went up to 224 from 204 in a short period of time. I don't have enough to pay all my bills and my credit card is maxed out. And I tend to be disgusted with myself, promoting a continuing low self-esteem tape. Inaction.

And now?
Now I have to choose a doable goal and plan within the range of what I am actually willing to follow through. No copping out. No numbing out. emoticon

What will make me smile when I, not anyone else, look in the mirror? emoticon
Hmmmmm...
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  • AUTUMNAGATE
    Thanks for your blog and keeping it real. Thanks also for your kind note and the personal chef. I have known throughout that you are always there for me and I want you to know you are very much appreciated. Trophy and thanks for being wonderful. emoticon
    2225 days ago
  • IMLOCOLINDA
    Same for me! Inconsistent.
    That's the word of the week. But I must make it LAST WEEK'S word and this week get on with it. Go for consistent and meaningful work.
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    2227 days ago
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