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Commitment Issues & Instant Gratification

Friday, September 13, 2013

So, for me, working out is like taking antibiotics...

The doctor always says you have to take the antibiotics for 10 days, even though you start to feel better after five.

I'm that person who stops taking them after day five. I mean, what the hell do doctors know? I feel better NOW!

I think it's part commitment issues, part instant gratification. Regardless, I got me some issues to work here people.


We've all been there. Huh? I know my waistline will hate me later, but damn that cheese looks good (I was gonna say cookie, but I'm not big on sweets).

I have the same issues with working out lately. Since I started back on the bandwagon I've been so good about working out... so much so that I feel great. I have barely lost weight, but I feel GOOD. I feel SEXY (well, sexier than usual).

So, after a few days of working out, my mind thinks... Bing! Gratification achieved! I'm feelin' fine. Job well done. Pat on the back! No more working out needed.

It's no bueno.

I know I have to push through it, and that if I don't keep up with the workouts I'll feel dumpy again. But try telling that to my brain right now. I know after a while some people CRAVE workouts, I feel the total opposite. And so we're back to follow-through, my old nemesis!


I finally overcame my relationship commitment issues this year and married an AMAZINGLY awesome man. But I am still a total commitment-phobe in so many other facets of my life.

I'm that person who has about 35 hobbies, and I'm really into them all, I mean into them like a TRAIN. But only for two weeks, give or take, then it's on to the next. Granted, I always come back to them... but who knows when I'll pick them up again, cause I sure don't!

Basically, I can make anything an obsession. For a minute. Before I move on.

I do the same thing with fitness/healthy eating.

SparkPeople gets me STOKED! I track things, I log things, I spin wheels, I get my arse off the couch, I tell people I'm gettin' healthy. I try to do it right and take the baby steps, but I'm just sooo PUMPED!

... Until I decide to start crocheting again, or that DIY project starts calling to me, or photography sweeps me off my feet again. And the weight loss, which seems like just another hobby, gets put on the back burner.

I know it's all about balance. I get it. It's just a matter of figuring out how that foreign concept of balance fits into my life. How do I get past these walls (self-imposed or not) and find the strength to have the follow-through to stick with this for the long-term.

I know it's supposed to be about a lifestyle change. But I gotta be honest, that's a hard pill for me to swallow. I don't love watching what I eat all the time, I don't enjoy exercise. I can't think of any kind of physical activity that gets me jazzed. I don't eat broccoli because I just love the taste, I eat it because it's healthy - but you can only do that for so long.

FOREVER is a really long time, especially with this kind of lifestyle.

I'm not trying to be a Negative Nancy today, I promise. I already did my workout and logged my food for the day. I'm still proudly on the bandwagon. But (vulnerability be damned) I AM STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW!

Thanks for letting me rant SparkPeople. I think I needed that.
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