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Getting out of my own head

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Do you have narrative tapes that run in your head?
The ones that whisper "Why try to improve? You'll age anyway."
"Why sweat? Sit down in this chair - the comfy one, and read a book."
"Even if you lose the weight you want, you'll still have ugly hanging skin."

For me, they run on a continuous loop (and the voice sounds like my mother), even though I've taken lots of steps toward better health, and sometimes I have to say (often out loud),
"Hush! I've got this!"

I've lost 60 lbs., I eat much healthier than I used to, I Spark every day, I work out at least 4 days a week, I'm accountable for my food and my feelings and still the tapes run. I have people I can trust in my life and still the tapes run...I've learned to meditate and still the tapes run...What's a girl to do?

I choose to keep getting stronger and faster so I can out run the tapes!
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  • JACKIE15108
    I have those tapes and the batteries never stop working......these days they are yelling at me to get out and walk and the more they talk the less I listen!
    I guess we need to change the messages they are playing to:
    "You can do it"
    "Look you've lost 60 lbs so far - that's wonderful!"
    "You can get lots of fashionable new clothes to cover the hanging skin!"
    "That nectarine was so juicy and good!"
    Good luck and put in some earplugs and I'll do the same
    1678 days ago
    Oh yes, I have those tapes! The tapes sound like me and are positive and uplifting, however if I ever get binge thoughts that track turns very dark, very quickly.
    1680 days ago
    The new argument i use is when i start to think "I can't" i interupt the thought with "but i can do...". i must say i feel like there are more opportunities and options.
    1680 days ago
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    1680 days ago
    OMG! I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who responds . . . OUT LOUD . . . to that negative voice (I call her Negative Nelly). PHEW! That makes us sane . . . right!?!

    For sure, though, it is so important to shut that negativity down. Kick it to the curb. Silence it! Whatever it takes.

    1680 days ago
  • MAGIK0731
    emoticon on the 60lb loss!!!

    I made a right decision on eating 2 hrs ago and I am still gleaming about it. emoticon
    1680 days ago
    I have the same tapes and yes, it is my mother's voice. Even though she has been gone for years, I still hear her daily in those internal tapes! Funny, they are the loudest when I am trying to motivate myself.

    What I have learned? I can. When I do, I feel good. Doing something is better than doing nothing. I too am working on getting stronger. I don't know if I will ever out run the tapes, but I do chose to get outdoors, distract myself with the sounds of nature (or civilization) and drown out those tapes.

    1680 days ago
    Just keep up the good work. The tapes will quit running and you won't even notice.
    1680 days ago
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