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Another Year Older

Monday, September 09, 2013

I'm 27 today.


This time last year I was at the heaviest I have ever been and also at my lowest. I was so miserable with what my body had become and how I had let myself get that way that I asked for a workout DVD for my birthday and when it showed up on September 13th, 2012, it somehow changed me. Today I am 31 pounds lighter. I haven't had the fastest progress in the world and I haven't always been super motivated. I've gone up and down, up and down in this journey so many times in the last year. But you know what? There isn't a time frame on a healthy life. It is infinite. It is something that you work at until the day your heart stops beating. And chances are, if you do continue to work on it, your heart will beat a lot longer than if you hadn't made the changes it takes to live a better life.

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So no, I'm not there yet but I am happy with my progress. I feel quite a bit better but am going to keep on moving along until I am where I deserve to be. My daughter deserves a healthy mommy to play with and to be there for her as she grows up. To give her advice about the hard decisions she will have to make in her life. To see her get married and become a mother herself, if that's what she chooses to do. My husband deserves a happy wife who is comfortable in her skin and therefore comfortable giving him everything she can, no holding back. And I deserve to feel that way about myself. I hate hiding in baggy clothes. I hate avoiding people who knew me when I was in better shape for fear of being judged. I hate not feeling good about myself. It's been that way my whole life and I'll be damned if I let it continue. I am not there yet, but I will be. I will keep working toward my goal even if it means 2 steps forward and 1 step back sometimes. A little progress is better than no progress, right? Don't we all deserve to feel good in our own skin? Yes, I think so.


I promised pictures from our camping trip. Here you go:

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    Your little girl is adorable! And you are so right, even if sometimes all we can do is tread water, as long as we keep trying things will improve! It's better to make slow progress that can be maintained, than to have huge results and watch them disappear! Congrats on your progress so far!

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    1688 days ago
    Hey ;)
    You look gorgeous in those pics ;)
    Happy B-day dear ;)
    For an year and half I lost only 14kilos but I`m not giving up ;)
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    1688 days ago
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