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Optimism and epiphanies...

Monday, September 09, 2013

I had an interesting epiphany of sorts today...

Not all that long ago, I could strike out and put in a 5 mile walk with no trouble. Today, after only 2 miles I was done. Now, I know 5 miles is a drop in the bucket to some and a seeming unreachable goal to others. To me, it was my new reality.

When I first started here on Spark, I was over the moon to reach 1 mile. I kept at it and suddenly I'm at 2 miles and still feel good. Next, I'm aiming for my very own 5K (~3.1 miles I think). I reached that goal and have done several of the Spark 5K challenges. I even improved my time! I was feeling pretty good!

One day, I decided to add in a loop I hadn't covered before on my walks. When I looked at my distance, I had gone a little over 5 miles. I wasn't dead! In fact, I felt terrific! Was I tired? Yes. BUT, I wasn't done in by it. In fact, I felt energized! I couldn't believe it! So, I continued to use that as my new standard for my walking workouts.

Then, I slipped. I could give you lots of reasons, including 2 surgeries which are legitimate reasons to take a little time off from exercise, but I'm not going to do that. Legitimate reasons or not, I didn't jump back in as soon as I was able. I slacked off on tracking. I let my portion sizes grow a little bit... yada, yada, yada.... BAM! Now my motivation is down, my weight is up and I'm frustrated.

Well, being upset about it and fretting isn't going to make it better. In fact, fretting has done nothing but make it worse. So, I'm grabbing the bull by the horns - so to speak - and getting my tushie moving again.

Don't get me wrong, I've never stopped moving. In fact, I constantly try and come up with ways to keep moving. I park further away and walk in to work. I take the stairs. I walk to coworkers offices rather than email. I'll do squats or lunges or something while i'm waiting for equipment in the lab. I stand at my lab bench rather than sit even though I have a proper lab stool. Even when I wasn't strictly tracking my food, I was still very conscious about what I was eating. All this has enabled me to maintain my weigh well for nearly 8 months. The problem is that I need to lose a lot more weight before I'm ready to maintain.

Well, I'm going to be sore tomorrow! Like I said, I'm hitting the reset and moving my tush. I'm not going to say I'm starting over. Here's why...

Today at lunch, I went for a walk. It was beautiful, by the way! It was one of my 2 mile routes and a little bit hilly. I was a little bit disappointed that I was sore and pretty wiped out after those 2 miles. I used to do 5!! How frustrating!
But then I realized what was important. I could STILL do those 2 miles! That was just a dream when I first started on Spark. Then it was a reality. Then it was history. Now it's my new "normal". I'm thankful that I don't have to start over from scratch. I'm hitting my reset now and working back up to that 5 mile goal! I did it once and I can do it again!!

So, that's my "short" story for today...

If you stuck it out, thanks! Feel free to kick me in the tush anytime to help keep me going. I'm so VERY grateful for the support of my friends here. Like I've said before, I may get knocked down; but I'm never out for long!

Spark on my friends!
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    WE CAN DO IT!!
    So loved this blog...I think one of the amazing things about sparkpeople is that it is both our personal motivator and a personal journey. I too have had my ups and downs on my nearly 3 year journey with sparkpeople and one thing I am thankful for is that I can look back and see where I have been and recommit myself when I need. I also love the kicks of motivation from my sparkfriends.
    So CHRIS...I believe in you...I have seen your ups and downs and have had a few of my own...The best thing we can do is keep going...this is a lifestyle and a journey not a destination...WE CAN DO IT!!
    Smiles Barb
    1715 days ago
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    Here is my kick in the butt...LOL. You are being honest with yourself and that is a huge part of the battle. I know you can do this!!!!
    1716 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/11/2013 11:58:13 PM
    I love it when we can be 'real' with ourselves. It's the only thing that keeps us moving forward. I'm right there with you on the disappointment of slipping back into larger portions. Sure I've had some major emotional set backs these last few months but that isn't going to be a valid excuse for why I'm not further along in my weight loss journey. I particularly LOVE our 5% challenges because they focus me to keep pushing forward on healthy habits...sometimes I'm more intent on supporting our team than I even am in supporting myself...oh well...whatever works...right? emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1717 days ago
    I know you can do it! emoticon 2 miles is an awesome accomplishment in itself and you already know you can do better!
    1718 days ago
    Way to go, Chris. I'm struggling a little myself, but we just have to keep working at it!
    1718 days ago
  • RDEE22
    Keep pushing your tush Chris. You will get that 5K back again before to long. emoticon
    1718 days ago
    Great mantra Chris, emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    1718 days ago
    2 steps forward & 1 step back is still progress. 2 miles is still a great starting point and you'll be back up to 5 before you know it...especially this time because you already know you can do it.

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    1718 days ago
    Another great mantra -- success, not perfection. I second that emotion too!
    1718 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    Awesome blog Chris. I think we all know that life is not perfect. We absolutely cannot do the same things all the time. Life happens. But the difference is how soon we get off our tush as you said and get going again.
    I know you can do,it!!!!!

    1718 days ago
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