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Friday, September 06, 2013

This summer was a difficult one. I know some of the reasons and I think I over estimate the difficulty. There were mothering worries and money worries and personal worries ect., ect., ect. You get the picture.

So I was thinking about video games. You know you can hit the button and the whole level starts over. Sometimes it looks better. But you also lose all the goodies you have earned. I am sad that I have not lost weight. I am sad that I am still working to figure out a good relationship with food. I don't like these struggles. But, I love being a mom. I love my husband and family. I have learned many things in the time that I have been working on my weight. I would hate to give up all of that.

So on Tuesday I went to a park with a notebook at sat down with myself and had a goal setting meeting. I got a plan for the days that I stay home. I am still pondering what I am going to do on the days that I have work. I then have was not home on Wednesday and Thursday. But, today I sort of remembered that I wanted to follow a plan. I need to get a few things together better. I will get this. Maybe I need to back off a bit...I will figure that out.

So I decided that I can go on from here. The past is gone. I have learned. I can continue to learn. I can continue to work on this journey. I have written down reasons that are motivational for me. I have written down the whys also.

I will be strong. I will end this school year closer to the goal that I am now. I will do this. I will be strong.

It does no good to look back and realize that it did not work unless I figure out how to fix the fact that it did not work.
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    "Fall seven times, stand up eight."

    We can fail. But we can never give up! emoticon
    1714 days ago
    We do not have the ability to change the past. But, we are capable of starting each day anew and refreshed. Keep pushing to meet your goal!
    1716 days ago
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    Sweetie, please be patient and kind to yourself. I love that you had the meeting. At you have learned you brought to the meeting. and form the sounds of it it looks like you will be seeking more for what works for you. Every little thing that you do makes a difference.
    For me ... one little thing was not going down the junk food aisle.
    Having a Meatless Monday. that got me eating more veggies.
    Walking during my son's bowling.
    Everything adds up. Think about the changes you have already made. You are creating a healthier lifestyle. You are ready to take your next step.
    1717 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/7/2013 6:53:40 PM
    I agree. It is important to keep moving forward. Your blog made me think.

    1. Readiness is a huge part of this program. I can hear the same advice over and over and not be able to really "get" it until I'm ready. It has to be my decision, not a feeling that I "should" be doing something or not doing something.

    2. Sometimes looking back is invaluable. We can see patterns. We can realize that life happens and "plans" can be impossilbe to keep. In fact sometimes we need to realize we were doing what we had to do just to survive... and that's OK while the crisis is happening but it can become a habit or way of living too after the crisis has passed. We can see where our goals had to be adjusted. I still love the advice I received when I first started here: If you are never meeting your goals then maybe it is your goals that have to change. Small successes are vital to changing a behaviour. Looking back you can see what new skills you have developed or tools you have collected. What worked and what did not.

    3. Looking forward is also important so you know what you are aiming for and why.

    4. Putting one foot in front of the other, living for today and enjoying the journey is all well and good but sometimes you have to see how far you have come or if you have just been going around in circles.

    I love your "meeting". Give yourself a consistency award for still working at this!
    1717 days ago
    Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow is your future and I am sure you will work it out! emoticon
    1718 days ago
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