Where has my drive gone...

This week I was suppose to start with a bang! Get some walking in, eat right and get some work done. Unfortunately not very much of that happened. I was so driven last week I dropped 7lbs, what happened?!? The long happened. I ate whatever I wanted, went out with friends, had a few drinks giving myself excuse after excuse. "Oh it's the only weekend you have had off all summer, have a little fun", "it's just one weekend, it won't hurt". All BS. The three day weekend turned into five days of I don't even know what.

Why do I associate fun with horrible food choices and alcohol? I don't need to be eating hamburgers and french fries to have some fun with my friends. I can eat healthy and still have fun! I need to change the way I see things. Eating and food has become associated with so many emotions for me. Happiness, sadness, boredom! Does anyone have any tips on how to change this? And because I have done so poorly the last few days I have had no drive or motivation to do anything! I didn't even track any of food or water intake on spark.

This morning was looking like another one of those days but Than I received a phone call from my doctor. After years of being terrified of going to the doctors I sucked it up and finally went a couple weeks ago! Of course I had to do a bunch of tests to make sure all is well and after waiting in great fear of the worst the last week everything came back normal!!!! I am still shocked, I was convinced that I had done some serious damage to myself considering my weight. I am taking this as a sign to get my butt moving! All is good now but that can change and I want to make sure I stay normal! My weight is bringing me down however and I was prescribed xenical to help me lose some weight. So far it is great. Is anyone else taking or has taken xenical, I would love to hear what your experience was with it. Well enough of me rambling on and on, just needed to get some things off my chest lol.