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She's just a baby

Wednesday, September 04, 2013

Tomorrow and Thursday evenings I will be with our friends, as they try to make something approximating the Jewish high holidays.

At these events, I will do my damnedest to keep my self together.


I am seething with rage and impotence. How bad is this? Imagine your worst nightmare. Your worst loss. The worst ache of your heart.

You are still in the junior league.

But don't feel bad about me. I'm just the beloved auntie. My presence provides assistance to the parents, gives that amazing, stubborn, willful beast of a child just one more target for her defiance.

And I'm good being that. Cuddle me only as a last resort, tease me in the meantime, drive me crazy.

But please, Becca, oh please. Keep being here to exasperate me. Please keep being that contrary little thug who loves best on her own terms.

You're a thug. Please, for all of us, keep being a thug.

I can't imagine life without you.
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    Had to read a few posts I had missed when I saw the most recent one. I have to say, I do love how you worded this. Made me want to cry and laugh at the same time. I trully hope that Becca is around a long time to torture you and hopefully others who get to meet her in her long life.
    1717 days ago
    I know this is late. I don't know how I missed this.

    Your pain is palpable. I wish there was a way to ease your pain, but I can't.

    Becca is a wonderful, beautiful, beloved child. Keep loving her. Keep that positive, loving, fierceness present in her life.
    1719 days ago
    1726 days ago
    Being a thug might work to her advantage....it sounds like she is a fiesty fighter!

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