Not so great August

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

I really fell off the wagon in August. Things started to really pile on towards the end of July and then snowballed into August. Things at work were crazy in July with vacations, my daughters dance class, my sons pregames, and my Summer class = beginning of land slide.

The last week of July/first week of August I was in the last two weeks of my Summer class and I was really struggling to keep up with the course work. The last week of class (first full week in August) a very close Uncle of mine who had been in the hospital since April and finally got to go back home on 7/27went back into the hospital. I was not getting enough time to study for the in class final I had signed up for. Got to class and had a full fledge panic attack and could not take the test. Thankfully my instructor had given a second option for the exam, take home 10 essay question exam. He allowed me to switch to that, which gave me a few more days.

But the next day was when I went into Urgent Care in such pain and was told I had an infection in my ear drum bone and was put on some very strong antibiotics. The antibiotics really kicked my butt, which made it very difficult to function let alone write essays. Two days later my Uncles wife, went into the ER, was life flighted to Des Moines, and put into a comma. Then my son started having some issues at daycare. So here I was in pain, getting my but kicked by drugs, trying to finish my final, my Uncle in the hospital and my Aunt two hours away from him in a comma. I feel off the wagon.

Exercise went out the window, healthy eating went out the window, and I crashed and burned. In two weeks time I gained 9 lbs.

The weekend of 9/17 I made a very long trip to Des Moines to visit my Aunt who was still in a comma and kidneys still not working. I then drove another two hours to see my Uncle who is still not out of the woods. I spent a lot of time with these two as a child. This was very hard on me and I was really struggling. Well, I am glad I went, 11 days after my Aunt went in the ER, she went home to her Lord in Heaven.

So the last week of August was very crazy. Monday trying to get a much work done as possible. Tuesday back to Iowa for a beautiful celebration of life. Wednesday trying to play catch-up at work and get to Meet the Teacher night for my son going into Kindergarten. And Thursday I had and ENT appointment because my ear was still bothering me. At my Drs appointment I came to find out I never had an ear drum bone infection and never needed to be tortured by such strong antibiotics. Do to all the stress in July, I had given myself TMJ/TMD! That was just great :o(

So, I have totally fallen out of routine. Exercise has become an after thought, all I want to do it eat junk. And I am just blah.

Tomorrow it is time to get things back on track and stop letting my team down. I have not been a very good Dawg this time around. And I have not been very supportive of all my great SparkFriends.

Today my son started Kindergarten, my Fall semester starts Friday (I have homework due by then already), and my daughter starts Preschool next Tuesday. Things are crazy as usual but time to get some focus back on the healthy me.

So I take the pledge again:

My Pledge:

Today, I promise I will not quit.

I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey.

I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself.

I pledge to take control of myself, to stop making excuses, and stop blaming other people or situations.

I pledge to treat myself as I would my best friend, because that is who I am.

I pledge to stay in the race and to be a WINNER!
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    You got through and did what you had to do - no apologies required. You've been taking care of lots of other people - hopefully you'll have a chance to take care of yourself soon.

    My sincere condolences on the loss of your aunt. I hope your uncle's health improves soon.
    2055 days ago
    Blessings for your Aunt now in heaven and your family. Sometimes we just have to go with God's flow and it can not always be about us. Life comes at us fast and now that you have weathered the August storms, you have already come back stronger and more focused. Woo Hoo! We dawggies are one big pawsome pack and you do not let us down and we will not leave you behind. So glad that you are able to focus in, that weight gain is so stress temporary, let's kick it in the rear!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2055 days ago
    HI hon !! U HAVE NOT LET THE TEAM DOWN !! LIFE HAPPENS !!!! And it SURE HAS with you ALL at ONCE and THEN SOME !!!! It does to A LOT of us at some time. Last Fall I had moved to Aurora (Next to Denver,, a sub of it) CO, and I weighed I found out today (I WAS SHOCKED !!! Only 189 !! SO MUCH CLOSER to my GOAL !! BUt !!! I was living w/fam and I became EXTREMELY depressed,, taken advantage of $$$ Wise something UNREAL !!! SO I ATE AWAY my Problem with ths,,,cos they were costing me thousands of $$$$ !!)) I was also inside WAY MORAH then I had thought,, and the LBS CAME ON HARD !!!

    By just b4 this chal,,,, I was UP TO 222 !!! I WAS/AM SHOCKED TO ITTY BItty of pieCES !!!! oh my GOODNESS !!! So now,,,I am back also back on track as you wish to be. Hon,,, I started off last chal,,, slow and built it up,, so I'd NOT become discouraged ! am now up to 120 mins a day, but !!! Its DONE SLOWLY over the day,, again so I do NOT become discouraged,, though I've been back to exer's now for about 12ish weeks. I am now working slowly on my eating,,, since June, I've been back in cal range, but NOT eating WELL AT ALL even within the range. Now I AM STILL NOT GR8 , but with the combo ofg the exer/ eating, I'm again losing about 1 to 3 lbs a week. THANKFULLY !!

    So PLEASE DO NOT BE HARD ON URSELF (hmm this is the ALPHA DAWGGIE Speaking :) and take it SLOWLY with building up the exercise,,, week to week,, REJOIN US For the "inbetween chal" which will start up on week #9. (Chal is 8 weeks ),,,, and also work on staying in cal range,, once in range and ur comfy,,, it really does work as I did,,, to eat well.

    MANY HUGS SWEETIE !! U've been THRU THE WRINGER AND So now the times,,, to come back into the kennel for ALSO LOVE AND HUGS !!

    HUG !! I AM THE FIRST to personally give you one !
    2056 days ago
    My condolences on the passing of your Aunt. TMJ can be a bugger, take care if you! We make a good sounding board here when the going gets rough!
    2056 days ago
    So sorry about your Aunt it is such a helpless feeling watching people who are terminally ill. How fun to send your son to kindergarten, such a milestone and what an emotional event. School, all you can say is that it suck up every minute you have.

    I would suggest that you commit to a 20 min block 3 times a week for a few weeks. Identify a space you can steal from everything else and just do that. Once everything is feeling a little less emotional you may be able to add more. As far as food goes, make a commitment to eat a healthy breakfast or lunch every day. Then identify a few foods that you really really shouldn't eat and avoid them for a couple of weeks.

    Good luck in school Happy days for your son
    2056 days ago
    emoticon You can do it. Making your self a priority can be hard at times but emoticon emoticon

    2056 days ago
    Climb back on.
    2056 days ago
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