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giving up

Thursday, August 29, 2013

fairly certain i am going to cancel my membership in spark people here soon. I track all my food and count my calories and do workouts and try to find energy to stay awake at work and lose a pound and half and gain in back and lose and gain counting calories the whole time, to the point that i feel like i am not getting enough calories, and i feel hungry all the time, and that makes me grumpy and unpleasant and tired all the time. then i try to relax and give myself some leeway some days while being stricter on other days and i gain weight four times faster than i can IMAGINE losing it. I don't know what I am doing wrong but i cannot stress out about this anymore, the stress itself is killing me. I have too many things to do in a day to keep freaking out about counting my calories and it is an utter motivation killer to count my calories and see myself GAIN weight when i am eating 1200 calories a day and feeling hungry ALL DAY.

just not going to give a shi anymore, no one else seems to care that i am so unhappy about my weight. the end. and sparkpeople really shouldn't tell me i don't have the right to use profanity in my own dam blog
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    doctor already did blood tests on me about a year ago when i went in about circulation issues, no diabetes related issues at the time, and he had them test for thyroid issues as well, none reported. and I tracked only calories consumed, not calories burned so that i wouldn't overestimate my calories burned...

    1992 days ago
    If you are truly only eating 1200 cals a day + exercise & you are not losing weight -- something is very wrong. If I were you, I'd go to the doctor and get some bloodwork/tests done. Maybe you have thyroid problems? You really should be losing weight. There is a possibility that you are counting your cals incorrectly or over-estimating cals burned thru exercise. I would just advise you to hang in there and try to figure out what the problem might be.
    2027 days ago
    I'm sorry you are feeling frustrated today. The journey to a healthier life certainly isn't an easy one. You are worth the effort, that is the reason to continue. It's a matter of finding the right combination of calories, exercise and emotional balance. If tracking your calories is stressing you out, then for a week or two don't, just eat sensible portions and exercise. Have your goal be movement. Try changing what you are focusing on and praise your accomplishments it may help you on the rough days. Tomorrow is a new day, a new chance for anything to happen. I hope tomorrow brings with it something for you to smile about :-)
    2027 days ago
  • SPERRIN2012
    Hi AJ,

    I am very sorry to hear of your news. Normally I wouldn't respond to this type of "I can't make this spark thing work for me" blog but today I figured at some point one or more of the rest of us sparked up members had to have felt like you do now. I know that I have and my only real advise is either your goals are set incorrectly or something isn't being tracked correctly.

    I have lost more than 35 lbs. in 18 month sparking. That came with fluctuations but I have and will continue to learn what's better for my body and longevity on this earth. I don't know your age but I just turned 50 two weeks ago and haven't felt like this in over 7 years. I say stick to the spark people web site and you will succeed. You know if you
    try you can get to the place you want to be.

    2027 days ago
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