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Thursday, August 29, 2013

I read the article this morning on happiness
and it really made me think about my happiness. I'm not a happy person. I try to be, but I feel overwhelmed and stressed ALL THE TIME! This article really made me realize a lot about myself and how my negative thinking and attitude gets in the way of being happy. I snap at the kids a lot, for 'laughing too loudly while I'm on the phone.' I am always on the go. 'Run, run, run!' is my motto lately. I don't even enjoy my surroundings half the time! Heck, it took me 3 months to notice the apartment building I pass on a daily basis was burned down! And it is literally right on the edge of the road!

I want to be happy. I really do. I just don't know where to begin! Money is always tight and the hubby can't understand why. We make good money but we've been behind and playing catch up for a while! So he's always getting on me for stupid things. Like this morning, I brought a box of stuff in from my van to put up. It was just a collection of toys and stuff that the kids left in the van. The box was for some stuff I was going to pack up for the Goodwill or to put in the shed for a garage sale with my sister. Hubby was looking for something and tripped over the box, cursing me for bringing it in. Then he started in on a pile of the kids school papers I was saving. Just drawings and things I wanted to put in my scrapbook. Again, he got upset and told me I was becoming the biggest hoarder he knew. That upset me. Our apartment is small and we can't really move out until our finances are straightened out (his erratic spending). But it's clean. I don't have mounds and mounds of stuff taking up space. It's a little messy at times, but that's bc we LIVE there. And even if I wanted the place clean enough to pass the white glove test, no way in hell would the boys allow me to and it would be too stressful to even try!

Anyway, I got off subject. Happy. That's what I want! So I'm going to start resetting my happiness point. I'm going to start looking at things in a more positive manner. Maybe I need to start blogging about one happy thing I think about or that happens each day.Or even update my status with a happy thought or moment. I'm just tired of feeling hopeless and like everyone in the world is happy and I'm stuck in the land of absolute misery!

Sorry for the depressing rant. I feel better! Thanks for reading, if you got this far!

Happy moment of the day: The scale finally went below 194! I'm 193.6!

Happy thought of the day: I can't wait to go home and hug my boys!

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    Hmm, perhaps I had a unique childhood. My mother was the epitome of one who sees life through "rose-colored glasses." She was always fostering happiness. That is to say, she always appeared happy and worked very hard to see the good in everything.

    As a small child (two or three years old), my mother noticed my struggle with simply being happy. So she started working on teaching me her tricks for happiness and her number 1 phrases was, "Happiness is a choice."

    Now, I understand that for some its cuts much deeper. But for me, being raised with this understanding has helped me profoundly, a long with all the other things my mom taught me about life. I think acceptance of sadness and/or anger is a horrible short coming (that we all need to work on to some degree), but knowing that happiness is a choice, that its available to anyone, is awesome!

    A side note about the happiness choice: This does not necessarily mean that you wake up one day and say, "okay, I'm happy!" and you're all better. (Although it does help.) It does, however, mean that you work on a positive mental and spiritual life and that you be willing to acknowledge and deal with what is haunting you.
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    Hope you find your happy place! emoticon
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    1694 days ago

    This rant makes me feel better a bit. My house isn't spotless because I have a full time job and pets and we LIVE there.

    1694 days ago
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