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Blah - Back Again as my Weight Goes Higher

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

I can't even count how many times I've written posts about how "this time" with be "the time" that I lose the weight and keep it off. Sadly I'm still not there. After Korea I said I would never reach 300 lbs again, and slowly I did. I told myself that it was okay because I would never hit my high weight of 340 again. Well over the past few months I did and I surpassed it. I hit a new high (or reached a new low in my life) of 360. I'm now at 354.8..... not impressed. I'm now back in the middle of no where and have fewer temptations but also very few healthy options. Next pay I'm going to start Nutrisystem. I tried a 5 day sample pack over the summer and I really liked the food. I think I will be pretty hungry at first but I will add healthy snacks and protein shakes. I also brought back my brother's Kinect. Last year I struggled with exercise because of extreme cold and I didn't want to do workout videos. I've used the Kinect before and loved it because it's like playing a game. It might not be the most intense workout but at this point any moving is good. My current goal is 10%, which I'm starting from the 360 to give myself a little credit for the 5.2 lbs I did lose in August. I know I'm not drinking enough water either so I'm sure once I do some water weight will come off. I'm hoping to lose the 10% by Christmas. My goal weight is 324 lbs. I really just want to feel good about myself again. Right now I just feel like an ugly blob of fat. I have no energy, no drive. I just want to sleep, eat and watch TV. Hopefully once I start Nutrisystem and the weight starts coming off I will feel like the better me again. Who knows, maybe THIS time will be THE time :P
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    You are not alone on that !!! You can do it !!! Take it one day at a time. My favorite saying for motivation is "I cannot stay clean today on yesterday's shower". It weird but it works for me - it really kicks my butt into gear.

    2237 days ago
    You can do it!
    I'm in the same boat. I fell off the wagon and gained beyond my original starting point. But we must stay positive and remind ourselves why we do this beyond just "weight loss".

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    2237 days ago
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