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Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Yesterday I got a letter I was dreading. It was from the Dept. of Labor regarding my Workman's Comp claim. They say that there is not enough sufficient evidence to prove that I cannot work, despite my doctor's claim of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, anxiety disorder and depression.

So now we start all over again with the medical reports, etc. In the meantime, I have not been paid since April 1st. No anxiety here.

So I ate to comfort myself. It's what I always do. This time, all that happened was that I felt sick and disgusted with myself.

This morning that letter was the first thought on my mind when I woke up. I just wanted to crawl back into bed and sleep. No depression here.

Instead, I took my son to the bus stop and decided that some claims examiner is not going to take control of my life and how I feel. I'm trying so hard to get better - I will not let this setback derail me. I hope.

I think I also suffer from scale anxiety. So I am not weighing myself or tracking pounds on my ticker. I changed it to fitness minutes instead. I just can't handle any negativity on this journey right now. If I gain a pound, I think I might just lose it altogether and jump off the cliff. I feel pretty close.

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    emoticon Hang in there. I, too, tend to eat emotions... and had a bit of a bender after the Ft. Hood verdict got handed down (and it didn't really bring any joy or closure)...

    BUT, each new day, we can pick ourselves up, and make the best decisions we can TODAY. Yesterday is history. Today is LIFE. emoticon emoticon
    2091 days ago
    It is a hectic thing to deal with that kind of mess, but you can keep on going in spite of this.
    2091 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I understand that you applied for Workers Comp and they did not approve your claim. Have you considered applying to Social Security Disability? Good luck.
    2091 days ago
    So sorry. I have been thinking about the difference between emotional eating and emotional OVER-eating. Everyone eats for emotional reasons. But we don't have to over eat. Some people can't eat when they're upset. (I'm jealous!). I hope you can find balance. Because food won't give you a hug, here's one from me:
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    2091 days ago
    emoticon I agree with the others -- Resubmit that Claim, and be Persistent.

    emoticon Remember that -- as hard as it is -- Exercise is a Great Anti Depressant. When you are Moving, it is easier to see the Silver Lining in the Dark Clouds.
    2091 days ago
    I did the same thing, sweetie - I was depressed because my pounds lost ticker rarely moved (cuz I sure didn't record if my weight INCREASED from the last time!) - no movement. So I changed my tracker to fitness minutes and now I get to watch it move forward - yay!! I feel so much more successful - like I'm truly making progress.

    I'm now happy to see it moving - even by babysteps - but not stagnant (like my weight felt). My swap has greatly improved my mood - I hope it will for you too. (Cuz even 5 minutes of exercise moves your tracker!!)

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    2091 days ago
    2091 days ago
    Yes I agree with CSKIES1, don't give up as they rarely approve claims on the first go around. Have patience as it may take 2 or 3 tries.

    As for the scale -- get rid of it for 6 months as you don't need anything else adding to your stress level.
    2091 days ago
    Sorry you didn't get the news you wanted or deserved...resubmit your claim...and keep trying...from what I hear they usually deny people a couple of times before they agree!!

    Best of luck and I hope you manage to have a better day!! emoticon
    2091 days ago
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