8/26 ~ last week of the challenge
Monday, August 26, 2013
One thing I would like to change is my perfectionist attitude. While this sort of thinking can be good, such as working towards a complete black-out during the weekend challenges, it can also backfire in a big way. I still tend to see my progress as black and white, all or nothing. If I give in to my chocolate craving, or have a donut for snack instead of making a wiser choice, I can let one bad decision lead to more bad decisions. It's hard for me to just pick myself and start over in one day's time. Tomorrow is another day, but recovery shouldn't have to wait until the sun goes down.
Another perfectionist problem is that I tend to not see what I have accomplished, and focus only on what I've yet to do, or the mistakes I made during the journey. I believe this way of thinking is holding me back because it keeps me from looking forward to new adventures, new ways of challenging myself. Instead, I trip myself up with past mistakes.
Lastly, the challenges are sometimes hard for me, and while I do complete them, I heave a big sigh of relieve when they are over, not converting my new-found knowledge to my daily life. Like when we had the no-salt challenge, which I got through while it was on. But once the weekend was over, I crept back into my normal routine without much thought. Again, this is perfectionism raising it's ugly head: sometimes I can do something for a short period of time, knowing that it will soon end and I can get back to business as usual.
Okay, is is longer than the original question of what ONE thing I would like to change; but these do all have a common theme.
Plus, it's early in the morning, and I'm still yawning!