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Monday, August 26, 2013

I should explain yesterday's blog post lol. It was the worst day at work EVER. Think of anything and everything that could go wrong...and it did. I am amazed we didn't get angry at one another! THAT'S when you know you work with solid people.

A few things happened today that triggered a lot of thinking for me:
-sorted through three boxes of 'skinny' clothes that I had packed away for more than two years
-listened to an amazing segment on the radio about technology and our drive to stay current and updated
-stood firm about not wanting to commit to something I really didn't want to do

As I sorted through my skinny clothes, most of which had fit within the last five years, two thoughts came to mind.
-I really need to find an outlet in place of shopping when I'm upset
-I used to have great taste in clothes

As I gave up more and more on weight loss and started gaining even more weight it looks like my taste in clothing has taken a serious nose dive.
I never used to settle for crap plus-size wear. I think some companies and designers should be taken to task for some of the far over priced #@$*&^ that's on the market. I digress....

I want to be happy with the way I look NOW. If I can't accept myself NOW, I never will. Skinny me became fat me because of how poorly I felt about myself. There's more than the excess weight on my frame that I must deal and come to terms with. Putting weight loss on the back burner won't work though. In order for me to heal my soul I have to heal my body as well. It has to be a work in progress in TANDEM. One can't exist without the other.

So when I look in the mirror will I be completely happy with what I see? No. But from now on when I do step away from the mirror I'm going to damn well make sure I'm pleased as best as I can be. I made the effort before and I can do it again. It doesn't matter what dress size I wear. No more GARBAGE BAGS to wear, have to find some style I can be at peace with for now.

This is the one time I feel at peace shopping for me. Doesn't usually happen :) I know why now...this is for ME, I know WHY I'm shopping....and it's not because I'm sad, angry or frustrated. It's because I know I deserve better. Even it's a decent looking blouse...
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Great blog Ameena. I need to take your advice
    and get rid of all those skinny clothes too. I hate
    shopping and I feel it's because I don't feel good
    about myself . I agree that this all has to change.
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    2093 days ago
    I can related. I've kept the most amazing pair of jeans for years because they are really awesome and I want to wear them again....some day!
    2096 days ago
  • NA2013
    I wish that plus sized clothes looked like the "skinny" clothes & were the *SAME* price. I am sick n' tired of having to pay *more* (because they use more fabric) and having the item look like total crap. :(

    I totally agree with you ... you need to be happy with what you look like NOW so you can change the parts that you are not happy with! Believe me.. it is difficult to do that... but, you (and I) *know* that it needs to be done ... so we can be successful in this weight loss journey. ;)

    2096 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    thanks. have a good week.
    2096 days ago
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