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The Tide Turns

Friday, August 23, 2013

Well, yesterday went well.

It went better than expected, in fact.

I wore my outfit, with my size 4 Banana Republic denim skirt, and my horizontally striped, brightly colored shirt. Nobody ran away, shrieking in terror. In fact, I received compliments on how lovely I looked. My hair seemed to be the subject of much brave I was to cut it all off and how flattering it was to my face.

My coworkers were all chummy and in high spirits.

The two people I wanted to avoid both were there. The one who always gives me grief about my weight was seated nearby, but didn't say a word to me. In fact, she almost entirely avoided eye contact with me. I see this as progress. Because quite frankly, I don't want her to suffer from the illusion that we are still friends, nor do I want to suffer through any halfhearted pleasantries she may be obliged to bestow on me.

The other former friend, he was always hovering nearby, but any time he came too close, it was like the universe miraculously sent a REAL friend to me to rescue me.

And that was the valuable lesson I learned yesterday. I am surrounded by wonderful, caring, intelligent, talented, and kindhearted people. I really am. Today, I have been rolling that idea around in my head. I feel lucky...for the first time in years.

I used to tell people all the time that I was the luckiest person they would ever meet. But then my life took a turn, and I suffered from all manner of unfortunate events. I truly believe things are starting to change...and my luck (whatever luck is) is back.

My life is changing, Sparkers. All I had to do was be strong enough to get through that rough patch (which lasted right around six years). Now, I am finally starting to feel like MYSELF again.
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    So I'm reading your blog today for the first time and haven't caught up on the back story. Sounds like the fair weather friend didn't really want to admit how fabulous you were looking, eh? And it's a real blessing when true friends hear your ESP and pop in right at the perfect time... (my interpretation of ESP = Extra Special Prayer - but I'm an oddball like that...).

    Sounds like a great time for you!!

    And yes there is a little "happy dancin' dude emoticon" that can be used here - at least, I call it the happy dancing dude emoticon!! Check it out, baby!

    In fact, in the Fitness emoticon, here are some other happy dancin' dudes and dudettes!!

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

    You Go, Girl!!
    1720 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/9/2013 12:50:59 PM
    I don't think it's luck at all, but you letting YOU come out again. As we go along this journey and the road winds and dips, we realize that we are in control.

    We are in control of how we let others treat us. We are in control of how we let them affect our mood and emotions. We are in control who we let in close and who we hold at bay. We are in control of who we consider friends.

    You are in control! Now that the tide is turning and you are feeling better about yourself, it will only get better from here! Remember you are in control and I'm just glad that you "let me in." emoticon emoticon
    1735 days ago
    Girly Girl! You are awesome!!! You aren't 'lucky' YOU ARE GREAT!!! You MADE you!!! I love to read the self confidence you are regaining!!! It's wonderful. I have lots of wonderful people in my life too!

    I consider myself 'fortunate' rather than lucky tho. Luck seems so random. Fortunate seems like self help was involved! I worked my behind off (literally) to get the 'luck' I've had with Dr's, meds, therapy, weight loss, family.... AND SO HAVE YOU!
    1736 days ago
    This is brilliant. You deserve to be surrounded by kind, loving, wonderful people. I'm sure you looked lovely! emoticon
    1736 days ago
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    I wonder if she avoided you cause you do look emoticon and there is nothing she could say except emoticon to you.

    I'm glad you had a emoticon time and you feel emoticon emoticon about yourself.
    1736 days ago
    I would generally use a string of happy expletives to express how giddy I am for you, but apparently Spark frowns on that --- and "woohoo" just doesn't quite cut it. I'm just gonna assume that you KNOW what I'd be sayin'!

    Maybe "luck" is just in how you look at things, and now that you are getting your SELF back, you're seeing all the good "luck" around you instead of just the bad.

    You are STRONG! You deserve to have all of the good, and the bad can just go... (back to the expletives again)... You deserve all of the compliments. You deserve good people around you who notice what's going on and head off the bad dude. You deserve to spend your thoughts on having a good time, without wasting a second on absurdly thinking that there's any part of you that isn't good enough.

    Hope you've got a celebration planned for yourself this weekend!

    (sheesh, and there's not even a little happy dancin' dude emoticon that I can use here...)
    1737 days ago
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