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First week of the new semester, and additional weight.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

I work at a community college in Illinois and we started classes on Monday. It's great to have the students back on campus and the excitement of the new semester. Even though I love the start of a new year (who doesn't love new school supplies?) it is also a really stressful time of year for advising and teaching my math class. It takes a few weeks for me to get back into the swing of teaching four days a week and being a student myself.

When I started taking classes a little more than a year ago, I did it because I know that I am better as a person when I am pursuing something. The idea of earning a new degree keeps me moving, it keeps me going when all I want to do is crawl into bed. And that is still true for me today. I am usually at work about 6:30am to do my own homework or grade homework for my students until work starts at 8am. Then I work all day, teach my class and go to the gym. I usually get home between 6:30 and 7pm.

It makes for a full day, and a full week, but when I have a schedule, I do better. I work out harder, I am more consistent and I plan ahead better for food. Well, usually that's the case. This summer I added a wrench into the plan when I started the Specific Carbohydrate Diet. In a perfect world, I would eliminate the foods from my diet that hurt my stomach, but the truth is that the world is not perfect. I have had a few days each week for the past couple weeks when my stomach was really upset with me, and the rest of my digestive system too.

When I feel so run down, I don't want to eat, I don't want to go grocery shopping and I definitely don't want to work out. But I'm still pushing myself. What I am focusing on now is to make sure I have food that I can eat in my apartment. I have to cook so much more of my food, which is time consuming, and I have to make sure that I have that time set aside every day. No matter how much cooking I do on Sunday, I still have to put the meals together every day. There are definitely days when I want to give up, like this week when I weighed myself and had gained weight. I'm only eating whole foods, how could I have gained weight?

Part of this special diet (which is not meant to last forever, just a year or two), which I'm doing to heal my digestive system, not to lose weight, is that I have to give up whole food groups. If I hear one more time that you can't be successful by giving up entire types of food, I might not respond very patiently. One thing that I have learned since starting this journey almost nine months ago is that everyone has to travel their own path. Maybe one person can handle having chocolate in their apartment, but I can't. Maybe someone is okay eating gluten, but my body does not like that. I am doing my best to make sure I am traveling my own path on this journey. I listen to the experts, read the article, research the science...but in the end, this is my life and I am the only one who can live it, right?

Maybe I'm just venting a little today, sorry if that's the case. I know that I still have a lot to work on...my weight and my self-confidence. I still look at myself and see all that I need to accomplish, not where I started and have come from. Maybe that will be part of my journey for 2014...:)

Hugs everyone!
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    retreat to the stuff you are 100% sure is safe for a few days while your system calms down.

    I find I have 4 sets of foods - the ones that are 100% safe, the ones I know for sure upset me, the ones I haven't tried reintroducing yet and then a group of foods that are ok when my system is happy, but I can't handle them if something else has already upset me.

    Hope this week is a better week for you
    1693 days ago
    allow yourself to look back and savor your accomplishments. how about a small non-food reward?
    1698 days ago
    I agree; everyone has to find what works for them and then do it! If you make the decision to give something up and firmly commit to that decision, you can give anything up you want to. Don't listen to the naysayers. Do what's best for you! Enjoy the school year! emoticon
    1701 days ago
  • BRADMILL2922
    Sounds like you are going to be busy! Good luck with your plan! You got this!
    1704 days ago
    I need to cut back foods and then slowly add them back to see what is giving my stomach issues...I just don't have the dang willpower to cut it all back to start with!
    1704 days ago
  • DALID414
    1705 days ago
    I agree, everyone needs to find what works for them. Good luck with your plan.
    1705 days ago
  • ASIAM62
    Wishing you the best on your journey! You know what is best for your body!!
    1705 days ago
    I love new school supplies!! There's nothing like the smell of fresh pencils and books!

    Good luck to you on your journey! emoticon
    1705 days ago
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