Start Stop Start Stop....Start

This is the last 2 years of my life with SP after the lose of 94 lbs and regain of close 60. The great baby convo coincided with my first week back to tracking. I have decided to let go and move on from the pain of the regain. Enough punishing myself. Enough hiding from it. Enough coming on SP and making false promises and then disappearing in shame. Start stop start stop. I am determined to just track honestly and stop punishing myself. I am not perfect but I am honest. So that is what I will be. Honest with myself completely.

What I learned in the last week. I was WAY underestimating my caloric intake and my mindless eating. Which shockingly was how I got over 300 lbs the last time. I had returned to drinking a lot of calories and sugar. Still not back to soda but chocolatey coffee drinks are a weakness. To the tune of a few a day.

Each day has been a struggle. To make better choices or to eat enough. I tend to go to the opposite extreme and restrict when I am tracking. It feels good to be taking responsibility again. Time to make this my last start and never stop.