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Saturday, August 17, 2013

Songwriters: Donald Mcclurkin

What do you do when you've done all you can
And it seems like it's never enough?
And what do you say when your friends turn away
And you're all alone, alone?
Tell me, what do you give when you've given your all
And it seems like you can't make it through?

Well you just stand when there's nothing left to do
You just stand, watch the Lord see you through
Yes, after you done all you can, you just stand

Tell me, how do you handle the guilt of your past?
Tell me, how do you deal with the shame?
And how can you smile while your heart has been broken
And filled with pain, filled with pain?
Tell me what do you give when you've given your all
Seems like you can't make it through?

Child, you just stand when there's nothing left to do
You just stand, watch the Lord see you through
Yes, after you've done all you can, you just stand

Stand and be sure
Be not entangled in that bondage again
You just stand, and endure
God has a purpose, yes, god has a plan

Tell me what do you do when you've done all you can
And it seems like you can't make it through?
Child, you just stand, you just stand, stand

Don't you dare give up through the storm, stand through the rain
Through the hurt, yeah, through the pain
Don't you bow, and don't bend don't give up, no, don't give in
Hold on, just be strong, God will step in and it won't be long

After you done all you can, after you done all you can
After you gone through the hurt, after you gone through the pain
After you gone through the storm, after you gone through the rain

Prayed and cried, prayed and cried
Prayed and you've cried
Prayed and cried, oh my

After you done all you can you just stand
Yes you do
You just stand
God will see you through
You just stand.

I have been having some major struggles lately. I have an enzyme deficiency which makes it hard for my body to breakdown and process protein as it should. Unless I get more than an adequate amount my body begins to respond as though I am protein deficient. I ache, my brain is foggy, I am sluggish, and for me, the dangerous thing, I slip into a deep, bottomless, depression. This comes on suddenly and I can go from thinking clearly and functioning to suicidal and irrational in a few hours.

I have been fighting the mental fog for a little over a month and the first sign of depression, night terrors have returned. Before when this happened I ended up hospitalized and so I didn’t share with anyone just how bad things were getting, because I am never, NEVER going back in the hospital again. I kept it to myself and fought through it, barely keep afloat. I kept praying to God to help me, to tell me what to do, begging Him to show me what to do to keep on the path to wellness and keep my sanity at the same time.

It occur to me, that I had been thinking about trying a med holiday from my antidepressant, because I believe it is the cause of a lot of my problems, mental and physical. They are made for short term treatment and I have been on this one for several years. This would be a big step forward for me, to get off of these poisonous drugs for good. To treat my depression through diet and exercise, and meditation and prayer. To avoid my triggers and have some hope of kicking the habit. I was making progress and right on schedule a big roadblock. And plenty of suggestions floating through my head about giving up on trying to lose weight. If I could reach my own behind, I would kick it. The enemy is stepping in right on time to try to convince me I don’t have what it takes to make this journey.

So, I prayed again, this time asking God what should I do about my protein issues and the med holiday. The answer was this song, running through my head over and over. I did all I could: looking up foods that help you process and breakdown proteins. Started my med holiday. Then stood and let HIm do His thing.

I felt better the minute I did what He asked and I ate foods today that help my body process the protein it got. I didn’t focus on it, I focused on other things. Cooked, danced, took my baby to be tortured by well meaning vets for her annual shots. I let myself enjoy the day and the little bits of joy in it, that give me such a boost. Like watching birds, clouds, squirrels, and my kitty chase her mouse. I sang to the Lord, to my kitty, to myself.

I just stood in the knowledge that God would take care of me and let myself get on with living. I still am a little foggy, but nothing like yesterday, when I refrigerated my remote control. I guess I thought it was hot and needed to cool down? If I can take this advice, to Stand, and apply it to all aspects of my life, I would probably be a mellow, happy person. Instead happy sometimes and shocked because I am happy and not stressed out. Good thing, God keeps knocking until we answer the door.

I hope you find where you are suppose to Stand in life, in this journey. And you go there and just wait for Him to help you through. Blessings!
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    Xen, you are exactly on the right track, honey. The Lord is faithful.. He will never leave your nor forsake you. As you seek Him, He will be right there to guide your steps and see you through. Meditate on the Word of God that speaks to your life and situations; meditate on Scriptures of His love. Speak them out loud. Tell the devil to get lost - he has no right to your life as you are a child of God.

    Btw, that song by Donnie M. is beautiful! Thank you for the reminder! :)
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    Comment edited on: 8/17/2013 10:47:44 PM
    Your song today is an inspiration to me. Just keep singing it. Do you remember the old hymn "God will take care of you, thru everyday, o'er all the way. He will take care of you. God will take care of you." I have sung that song so many times. Singing really helps me. That and abiding in the Word. Thank you so much for this song today. It has helped me so much. God bless you. I hope you feel better. Judi emoticon emoticon
    1740 days ago
    It looks like you are on the right track. I read something just recently that might help you. "Don't let fear be the reason for your decisions. Instead, fill your heart and mind
    with positive life affirming words that will never change. Look to God's word."-from
    Women of Faith.com. Also here's another: "Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes."-Ephesians 6:11. Those words you hear that are negative are Satan's words trying to turn you away from God's truth.
    I will keep you in my prayers and I hope that you have a good weekend. God bless.
    1740 days ago
  • KAZZIE531
    Xen..This says it all:

    Proverbs 3:5-6

    Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.

    I think you are now on the right path........trust it!
    1740 days ago
    Xen, you are right in asking God what to do and then following His directions. He will never leave you to travel the road back to health alone. Sometimes we have bumps in the road but if we see them as stepping stones to where we are going instead of bumps that cause us to fall we can look at our situation differently and with a positive attitude. God is the God of all hope! He has freedom for you and wants to lead you into it. Don't listen to the negative voices in your head. Push those thoughts aside and grab hold of God's word for success. Read every positive verse in the Bible that tells you of His love for you and the good plan that He has for your life. Speak those verses out loud so your ears can hear them and they will go down into your heart where they can take root and bear good fruit in your life. Yield to God and tell the devil to get out of your life. He is the one who comes to steal, kill, and destroy but Jesus came to give you abundant life. Reach out and take it; it's yours!

    God bless!
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    Comment edited on: 8/17/2013 8:45:40 AM
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