Day 11 - Still on the wagon
Thursday, August 15, 2013
It feels pretty phenomenal to not be driven to go out in the rain this morning to smoke. I only thought about smoking in passing as I drove by a group of huddled smokers under an umbrella. That would have been me a couple of weeks ago. I've "successfully" quit smoking a few times over the years, once for as long as 15 months. What feels different this time, however, is that I really, really want it. I remember seeing my friends smoking at times when I had quit and being really jealous of the fact they were smoking. I don't feel that way anymore. I'm trying to get out from under the oppressor that is smoking for the last time. Which makes for a different motivation entirely.
I also worked out yesterday and stayed in my calorie range. I drank gallons of water and slept 8 hours. I'm feeling pretty darn wonderful today even if I wanted to stay in bed and enjoy hearing the rain from the comfort of my bed cuddled up to the large spoon that is my boyfriend. Alas, I drug myself out of bed and into work.