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Wednesday, August 14, 2013

I’ve been trying to remember back to the time three years ago when I was truly ready to start losing weight. What made it finally click after decades of being 100 lbs overweight? Something in my mind said “You’re ready, Erin.” And I was.

In a year, I lost 110 lbs and reached my weight goal. I hadn’t been 140 lbs since I was 18 years old. My body felt foreign and I couldn’t stop looking at my reflection as I passed by store windows. It was as though I had to keep checking to make sure I wasn’t imagining the fact that I was now thin.

For over a year I did a pretty good job at keeping the weight off and I relished in the fact that I no longer needed to shop in a special section for clothing. I was able to stop obsessing about how embarrassed and uncomfortable I was because of my weight. I was finally happy with my body.

Well, life took a turn and I allowed depression to get the best of me. I was unemployed, my romantic relationships weren’t working out and I eventually even became homeless. It was the hardest year of my life and the weight managed to creep back on.

I’m now 205 lbs and know that something has to give. I can’t let this be how my weight loss journey ends. I know what I’m capable of. I know what works for me.

For months I have had all sorts of false starts. My life is still in limbo and I can no longer use that as an excuse.

Like I’ve said before… It doesn’t have to start on a Monday. It doesn’t need to be the first of the year or month. I don’t have to gorge myself before starting. I just need to start.

It’s 4:30 pm on Wednesday August 14th. I’m ready.

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  • AJDOVER1
    Today is a great day to make healthy decisions! I wish you all the best.
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    1798 days ago
  • LISAW/3
    Welcome back! Hopefully Spark and its community can help you lose that weight. You've done it, you know what it takes.
    I'm sorry to hear of your struggles, but hopefully you are in a place where you can take care of yourself again!

    1798 days ago
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  • ERINLINDSAY83
    This is a wonderful blog. love it. You are amazing. I love that you acknowledge that you are fully capable of doing this..that's a great start! Plus, you already know HOW to do it! (The hard part is the motivation, hehe.) Keep pushing and dont hesitate to reach out for help (to family or friends or SP members!)
    1798 days ago
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