Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Just don't know how else to describe my emotions today.
I'm so impatient with myself. Watched a documentary last night called "Hungry for Change"--have you seen it? So informative and helpful. I can totally relate to the the emotional struggle behind all of this. I must sound absolutely crazy to anyone reading because one day I'm up and one day I'm down. It changes within the course of the day, too! It's so foreign to me to think positively about myself, my body, and my emotions just get the best of me at times.
It's a spiritual struggle as well, I'm fully aware of that. If I rely on God's strength to win this battle, then the enemy doesn't like it and will fight against me each step of the way. That's what's happening here. How do I learn to keep more positive? more disciplined? more consistent? Enough of the talking and writing about it...where does the DOING it come in?!?!
It does help to pop onto SP and find an encouraging article or quote or comment. Thank you to SP, PHYLISSCR, who left me an encouraging comment this week. I'm feeling rather alone in the mental part of my battle. I have my husband and family who want to be healthy and are great sports with the food changes, and all. It's just the mental struggle that I feel like no one understands.
I think I'll go read a few articles and watch some videos for encouragement. If you're a praying person, I'd appreciate your prayers in this very spiritual battle for me. Thank you!